not much~

its been ages since the last time i ended up writing new post. i was too occupied with my assignments and family things. mama has been better, but still, although she can eventually walk now, she have to used those "tongkat" for walking. alhamdulillah, at least she can walk now compared to last time.

i went back home every week, to see mama and family. oh, nothing much happen. my school life? its been hectic! prof. susan keep on giving us assignment though i know i should have not complained about it but still, i can't really cope up with everything. i just have to study really hard. i just have to. i might have just extend for another 2 semester. oh please dear god, let me get a really good results for this 2 semesters. so that i don't have to extend another semester.

mr. boyfie has always be the same. nothing much happen. no more fights but again, at this particular moment, i do not get any message from him. i am angry and a little bit upset but whatever. he will come back to me, explaining he is busy with his work. he does that a lot, i bet you that.

this entry is boring. i should have write something more cheerful and put some pics here and there. hmm. i will do that. till now, bye.

mama's condition

after 1 week since mama got her 1st stroke attack, she's getting better. however, she is still weak, despite of all the medicines that abah bought and gave her. abah had a whole week of holidays last week, so apparently he had already started working today. he is going to fix his schedule in order to take care of mama. kak ning also has been coming back to kajang every week, all the way from Malacca. kak ti also came back this week from terengganu. as for me, i went back every 2-3 days. i need to take care of the house, make sure the house is in good condition, and look after mama. love has been so kind to me. he had been helping me doing house chores, bringing me back home because i don't have driving license to drive a car, keeping up with my unstable emotion. we bought groceries together, going back and forth to my kajang. don't know how to thank him.


last thursday i managed to make a solat hajat and reciting yassing in surau KK7. several of my friends came. linda and syed have been helping me with handling the food and drink for that night. thank you so much guys!!! really, only God knows how thankful i am. the event was mainly about mama and arwah baby kecik (my brother's child) who died during giving birth by my sister in law. baby kecik was a girl, named Yasmin Sofea but God loves her more than we do. so, He took her away from us :'(


it was a really tough week. i had a fight with love and it was really frustrating. but again, thank God we finally make up back. with all those sad events, i was really depressed and sadness filled my life. couldn't describe how things change in a blink of an eye. i really hope that mama will managed to walk back as usual, and talk as usual and cook as usual because mama is the best cooker. i can assure you on that. she have a strong will to get well soon. please dear God, let she recover soon :'(

important message

to all my friends, mama sekarang ni tak sihat. she got stroke. please pray for her.. this coming thursday i will be having a solat hajat at 7th college.. please, do come to pray for my mother sickness. as for now, please pray for her. thats all, thank you... =(

serabut :(

- had a fight with Mr. Boyfie last night. i was hurt by his word. everything is really messing up now :(

- i miss Mr. Boyfie when we started dating officially. he would make me laugh, say all those nice and sweet words.

- i don't like him acting so harsh on me. because i am very sensitive to his action.

- he seldom pick up the phone. i wonder why.

- i get jealous easily with his action, i feels like he does not care bout me.

- i just wished that things will get better soon =(

Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanted
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends

I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love

You teach me how to see
All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your world I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends

I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you

When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colors of love and of life ever more
Evermore

(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
And live through your life
I see you
I see you

p/s: i am currently into this song. i love the lyrics as it is meaningful yet not dragging. the twist point here will be, of course, Leona Lewis' voice. very enchanting and powerful. i have to admit it, i am absolutely in love with this song. its from the box office film Avatar. damn, i watched twice the movie and i did plan for the 3rd time to watch this movie in 3D. i love the effects, the sound, the pictures. its really worthy to watch it at movies for several times! highly recommended for everyone =)

welcome 2010, goodbye 2009

as i am writing this entry, i have no doubt that it has been lame to actually wishes everyone of you happy new year!! 2010 has come with a new spirit (i bet on that one!) and a brand new list of aiming here and there. apparently, as i am writing this down, i am in the middle of the lab. Prof Susan has apparently got a meeting and left us inside the lab. it has been no doubt that i have been busy doing my thesis and preparing myself for a whole new spirits.


i am at home now, i continued writing this post at home because the other day, i went back to college early ;) okay, so my latest update will be of course, i had already started new semester, my 6th semester of my degree. Mr. Boyfie on the other hand, had already started too his master. his doing jellyfiish. regarding on my data at gombak for my thesis, chen told me that my data was good. apparently, after 3 times of doing corrections here and there, he likes my data :') thank God.


i want to score real hard this semester. i really wanted to be like Mr. Boyfie, get a good results and a secure future. maybe in the next post (dunno when), i'll probably write about doing master in UM. how and what are you supposed to do. i am currently busy with my life and my study. guess that being a 3rd year student means its the real busy stage in the life.


my aim for this year? to get a better results in my studies, not to mention, to lose few kgs of my current weight. since ayus keep on saying that i'm putting on weight which i think, i still maintain my normal weight. and things are getting better with Mr. Boyfie. although we have small fights, but he told me that he will never give up on me. and to you, i will never give up on you too. cause you don't know how much you mean to me ;) i will always and forever love you sayang.


i have great friends surrounding me, including yam and linda. yam was excitedly called me today to tell me about celebrating my birthday this sunday! i can't wait for that but i think i have to postpone it to other day because i want to celebrate it with my family ;) okay, sila tinggalkan hadiah untuk saya ye =p


wish you all a great day peeps!

bz mode..

sorry peeps, i'm a little busy right now, sorry =(