Life of A Shopaholic + Student

2010-02-09T02:49:00.001-08:00

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battle of the band ;)

2010-02-06T03:25:00.000-08:00

i had fun last night, watching battle of the band at friendster 12th. the crowd was okay la, not so many yet not so little. Mr. Boyfie can't make it last night, he does not into this event, i can sense that. after all, i was hanging out with some of my friends ;) there were 15 groups this year. i like to watched nadiya hayati playing bass because she did it so nicely and so cool! i didn't stay till the end because its already 1 am at that time. there were several technical problems, nothing major. the song, unfortunately are not really my cup of tea, it was so-so. oh well, i feel like going to a place where i can enjoy great music and sing along with it. anyone who wants to follow me, hands up! wink* wink*

p/s: had a fight with mr. boyfie again. this time, he knows that i was really sad and he decided to be with me. i love him so much, wish that he understands me lots better.

malam kebudayaan melayu 09/10

2010-02-04T17:45:00.000-08:00

tempat dukun berehat

overall stage

ruminah sidek aka. mak mah, perasmi majlis

me and linda, ngee~

hahahhaha!! nadia pregnant ;)
cool act btw

majlis perkahwinan, cute sangat!!~

kuda kepang, stylo!

ulik-mayang and upacara undo santau

yesterday was malam kebudayaan melayu session 09/10. this activity was mainly made by my first year's junior. they had made a great perfomance last night. i was satisfied with it. oh, 7th got no water yesterday and today. still, thank God, i still managed to take a bath as usual because of my determination of picking up the water from all over the places ;) hik3!!~ i met mr. boyfie last night. he came with his housemates to watched the event. unfortunately, there's no conversation between me and him, he was too occupied with his friends. i watched the event with linda though, yam can't make it due to her buzy-ness on Friendster 12th. i did planned to go there again, to watch battle of the band, tonight! hehehe!!~ (with those evil smile plastered on my face, if you know what i mean?) wink* wink*..

the other day i went to friendster 12th to support yam. at evening, she joined tarik tali for sukmum, so i went there to support her. then she had karoeke competition. i was too tempting to join it but i was aware that my voice is not that good, lol!!~ can't wait for tonight's event! leh cuci mata ;)

not much~

2010-01-30T22:16:00.000-08:00

its been ages since the last time i ended up writing new post. i was too occupied with my assignments and family things. mama has been better, but still, although she can eventually walk now, she have to used those "tongkat" for walking. alhamdulillah, at least she can walk now compared to last time.

i went back home every week, to see mama and family. oh, nothing much happen. my school life? its been hectic! prof. susan keep on giving us assignment though i know i should have not complained about it but still, i can't really cope up with everything. i just have to study really hard. i just have to. i might have just extend for another 2 semester. oh please dear god, let me get a really good results for this 2 semesters. so that i don't have to extend another semester.

mr. boyfie has always be the same. nothing much happen. no more fights but again, at this particular moment, i do not get any message from him. i am angry and a little bit upset but whatever. he will come back to me, explaining he is busy with his work. he does that a lot, i bet you that.

this entry is boring. i should have write something more cheerful and put some pics here and there. hmm. i will do that. till now, bye.

mama's condition

2010-01-23T06:19:00.000-08:00

after 1 week since mama got her 1st stroke attack, she's getting better. however, she is still weak, despite of all the medicines that abah bought and gave her. abah had a whole week of holidays last week, so apparently he had already started working today. he is going to fix his schedule in order to take care of mama. kak ning also has been coming back to kajang every week, all the way from Malacca. kak ti also came back this week from terengganu. as for me, i went back every 2-3 days. i need to take care of the house, make sure the house is in good condition, and look after mama. love has been so kind to me. he had been helping me doing house chores, bringing me back home because i don't have driving license to drive a car, keeping up with my unstable emotion. we bought groceries together, going back and forth to my kajang. don't know how to thank him.

last thursday i managed to make a solat hajat and reciting yassing in surau KK7. several of my friends came. linda and syed have been helping me with handling the food and drink for that night. thank you so much guys!!! really, only God knows how thankful i am. the event was mainly about mama and arwah baby kecik (my brother's child) who died during giving birth by my sister in law. baby kecik was a girl, named Yasmin Sofea but God loves her more than we do. so, He took her away from us :'(

it was a really tough week. i had a fight with love and it was really frustrating. but again, thank God we finally make up back. with all those sad events, i was really depressed and sadness filled my life. couldn't describe how things change in a blink of an eye. i really hope that mama will managed to walk back as usual, and talk as usual and cook as usual because mama is the best cooker. i can assure you on that. she have a strong will to get well soon. please dear God, let she recover soon :'(

important message

2010-01-17T06:54:00.000-08:00

to all my friends, mama sekarang ni tak sihat. she got stroke. please pray for her.. this coming thursday i will be having a solat hajat at 7th college.. please, do come to pray for my mother sickness. as for now, please pray for her. thats all, thank you... =(

serabut :(

2010-01-14T20:53:00.000-08:00

- had a fight with Mr. Boyfie last night. i was hurt by his word. everything is really messing up now :(

- i miss Mr. Boyfie when we started dating officially. he would make me laugh, say all those nice and sweet words.

- i don't like him acting so harsh on me. because i am very sensitive to his action.

- he seldom pick up the phone. i wonder why.

- i get jealous easily with his action, i feels like he does not care bout me.

- i just wished that things will get better soon =(

2010-01-12T03:15:00.000-08:00

Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanted
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends

I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love

You teach me how to see
All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your world I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends

I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you

When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colors of love and of life ever more
Evermore

(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
And live through your life
I see you
I see you

p/s: i am currently into this song. i love the lyrics as it is meaningful yet not dragging. the twist point here will be, of course, Leona Lewis' voice. very enchanting and powerful. i have to admit it, i am absolutely in love with this song. its from the box office film Avatar. damn, i watched twice the movie and i did plan for the 3rd time to watch this movie in 3D. i love the effects, the sound, the pictures. its really worthy to watch it at movies for several times! highly recommended for everyone =)

welcome 2010, goodbye 2009

2010-01-06T22:37:00.000-08:00

as i am writing this entry, i have no doubt that it has been lame to actually wishes everyone of you happy new year!! 2010 has come with a new spirit (i bet on that one!) and a brand new list of aiming here and there. apparently, as i am writing this down, i am in the middle of the lab. Prof Susan has apparently got a meeting and left us inside the lab. it has been no doubt that i have been busy doing my thesis and preparing myself for a whole new spirits.

i am at home now, i continued writing this post at home because the other day, i went back to college early ;) okay, so my latest update will be of course, i had already started new semester, my 6th semester of my degree. Mr. Boyfie on the other hand, had already started too his master. his doing jellyfiish. regarding on my data at gombak for my thesis, chen told me that my data was good. apparently, after 3 times of doing corrections here and there, he likes my data :') thank God.

i want to score real hard this semester. i really wanted to be like Mr. Boyfie, get a good results and a secure future. maybe in the next post (dunno when), i'll probably write about doing master in UM. how and what are you supposed to do. i am currently busy with my life and my study. guess that being a 3rd year student means its the real busy stage in the life.

my aim for this year? to get a better results in my studies, not to mention, to lose few kgs of my current weight. since ayus keep on saying that i'm putting on weight which i think, i still maintain my normal weight. and things are getting better with Mr. Boyfie. although we have small fights, but he told me that he will never give up on me. and to you, i will never give up on you too. cause you don't know how much you mean to me ;) i will always and forever love you sayang.

i have great friends surrounding me, including yam and linda. yam was excitedly called me today to tell me about celebrating my birthday this sunday! i can't wait for that but i think i have to postpone it to other day because i want to celebrate it with my family ;) okay, sila tinggalkan hadiah untuk saya ye =p

wish you all a great day peeps!

bz mode..

2010-01-02T18:43:00.000-08:00

sorry peeps, i'm a little busy right now, sorry =(

my thoughts..

2009-12-22T06:27:00.000-08:00

as i was taking almost a half day going to Institute of Medical Research (IMR) in Kuala Lumpur, meeting Encik Dollah to do some identification of mosquitoes. actually, i was following Kak Nurin and Abg Izzul there. both of them was just simply dragging me together with them to make me learned more on mosquitoes taxonomy. well, i must say that i gained knowledge, priceless knowledge on mosquitoes. i have now mentally prepared on getting my thesis done :) during lunch time, the four of us, eventually Kak Harlina included too, went to 12th college to have our lunch. i was the only undergrad student while all of them are master students. as we talked, i realized that its better to waste, ops! to spend our youth time gaining knowledge till we totally capable of memorize every single thing! i mean, in my context of words, i would definitely put in on horrible ways. eventually, i learned that a doctorate student (i mean phd student, if i get the spelling incorrect), would get monthly payment of rm6000-rm7000!! that is a really huge money. lets see what shall we buy with all those money :

1. pay the monthly payment of my family house.

2. take my parents to go to Macca and vacation.

3. i can buy a suzuki swift car.

4. can buy tons of makeups from MAC, heels and more heels from Aldo, bags, branded clothes, etc..

5. save my money for my future.

but, incase if you haven't notice, i HAVE to study REAL HARD in order to get my hands on that kind of payment. although i realize that i have another talent, apart from having pretty good in communicating skills, i also know that i can be a very good teacher. i have sufficiently proved it for the last few years back. but again, being a teacher is really not my thing. i don't plan to spend my entire life just to teach on one particular subject. instead, i would love to explore more and more. but again, being a lecturer is really hard for me. as i am not a really good student, to start of.

on the other hand, compared to Mr. Boyfie, he got those brains and inteligence within him. oh God, i really wish that i have those 2 qualities that make him the spotlight. yes, i can imagined while he is reading this, he might think that his gf is just crapping some nonsence, ngee~ i'll pray for his success. okay, back to my main point. the path to be a lecturer can be harsh. you know, you have got to be prepared mentally and physically. i mean, you have got to get a really good grades. i don't pass that criteria, unfortunately. but i did pass on teaching people until they managed to get results with flying colors! :')

oh well, lets just pray that i will managed to get good grades for this new, upcoming semester. Mr. Boyfie had always have fainth in me but still, the success is not within my reach, sigh*. i will try my best, and that, is my promise to my ownself.

end of 2009

2009-12-20T17:53:00.000-08:00

i am practically writing down this post inside my lab. although this is the last week of semester break, i still going back to UM to finish up my data regarding on my project. yeah, its lame but still, i need to settle it up soon. its been a really tiring week, i must say. unfortunately of me (sape suruh buat keje lambat2?!). so here are the things that has been revolving around my super busy and humble (hihihihi!~) life :

1. already pass up my draf on literature review.

2. i have done my corrections on my data in Gombak.

3. have already started my 2nd site in Kuala Selangor. but i have not finalize the results yet.

4. have already neglected my super fun life and face (its horrible, trust me!)

5. running out of money already.

6. daydreaming on getting my hand on iPod touch (takde kaitan!)

7. love Mr. Boyfie even more, awww :')

apparently, Mr. Boyfie got an offered to further his study in Master at UM. i'm so glad! at least, i can still seeing him from far away =p he got a good results for last semester and i am so proud of him. he got a scholarship from UPM to do his master and phd and at the end of the day, he will become a lecturer (amin...) and finally, hope we can get marry one day :')

ok, thats all. i need to finish up my mosquitoes dissecting thingy. its reallytime consuming to actually dissecting one by one of the mosquitoes. haish.. =_="

relieved~

2009-12-14T07:27:00.000-08:00

terasa nak marah orang, ngee~

i just finished up writing 20 pages of literature review and have been compiling more than 50 references. its been a really tiring week. and yet, i still have to edit my literature review, haven't finalize it. regarding on my references, i still need to check out my format on writing those references. for the data, i have just finished up doing graphs but still, i need to check back my whole results.

finished talking about my endless work on thesis, i have already arrived back at Kajang this evening. i have been staying at syura's house for couple of days. Mr. Boyfie had helped me a lot regarding on my thesis. a bunch of thanks to you love for helping me out with these stuff. rasa dekat sangat dengan sayang, best :) sebab sayang sanggup temankan i ke sana ke mari and seeing you smile makes me feel like i own the world!

pape pun, this thursday, i will be going to Taman Alam, Kuala Selangor for another 4 days of fieldwork. this is my second site and i hope i will manage grab couple of people to follow me to this place. sape2 nak ikut inform me via sms please. bitau ASAP ok?

thanks love =')

2009-12-12T04:39:00.000-08:00

1. for keeping up with me through good and bad times

2. for letting me know how much i mean to you

3. for being with me although you yourself are tired and restless

4. helping me put with my thesis projects

5. listen to my mumblings all over again

6. makes me smile after a rough day

7. for accepting me as i am despite all my weakness

and last but not least...

to show me that love is beautiful and you have given me unconditional love.

i will always and forever remember you

because you have made my life so special

and full of happiness

thanks sayang :')

opinion peeps??!!

2009-12-09T20:54:00.000-08:00

well, i was thinking about what life would be after graduating next year from um. unfortunately, for me, i have good PR skills but my brain does not supporting me. i don't know, i wish i have a brain like Mr. Boyfie. he's really good with his brain. i wonder, whether i will be able to be exactly like him. i ma frustrated with myself, kind off thinking that hey, why am i being so stupid these days? where the hell is my will power? where the hell is my brain? i wanted to be like in those days, where i have good brains, good deals in the future. oh God, please give me back my brainy. i wanted to make my parents proud of me. i feel sorry for Mr. Boyfie for having a stupid girlfriend like me =( sorry love, i am not like you who can get dean list twice. i tried but its just too hard for me to try and get good results :'( now, i am thinking i am no better than anyone else.

kepenatan~

2009-12-09T08:11:00.000-08:00

saya penat..

sekian, terima kasih..

lets get updated!

2009-12-07T21:36:00.000-08:00

ATTENTION PLEASE!

THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG ENTRY

;)

part 1:

last week has been a hell out of week. i was finishing up my data for thesis with the help of Abg Izzul, Mr. Boyfie and myself dissecting one by one all the mosquitoes for analysis data and compilation purposes. i was a little late for preparing these data (i wasn't serious earlier but now i am serious about it) =_=' we have like hundreds of mosquitoes to be identified and dissected. but thanks to Mr. Boyfie, he had helped me a lot within that 2 days in the lab =) i heart you sayang.

then, again, he helped me doing my compilation of data to pass it up to my co-supervisor. i must say that without him helping me all these things, i might not going to do well in presenting my data. oh, he really makes me falling for him so hard =p take a sneak peak on my data presentation. i shall say Mr. Boyfie deserves to get an A for his thesis. he is SO good!

part 2 :

well, after those hectic days, somehow i managed to squeeze some of my precious time to celebrate Mr. Boyfie's birthday =) we had lots of fun, shared the special days together, have a heart-to-heart conversation. i bought him a little present (sorry, i am running out of money love ): and he likes it!!

part 3 :

on thursday, shanti asked me to help her being a promoter for Bizzy Body at Metro Kajang with a payment of rm70 per day. although i was too occupied with lots of things, i managed to help her that day. unfortunately, i came late and i have less that 6 hours to gained information of 40 people and promoting the company. within the 1st subsequent 1 hour, i managed to grab almost 20 names!! and by 4 hours, i managed to get 40 names altogether. Mr. Boyfie told me i have a good PR skills, even shanti was shocked too on how little time i managed to get lots of names =) cheers!

p/s : but i want to have good brains, just like Mr. Boyfie who managed to get good results :(

part 4 :

on last saturday, i was involved with my brother's dinner, being the makeup artist for the beauty peagents at his work place. i was scared and nervous, not to mention, i was really feel insecured coz i was not sure about myself, wether i can do these or not, while Mr. Boyfie keeps telling me that i have to have a faith in myself. thanks love for the advise =) and hell yeah, i managed to finished up everything, all together 15 people in 7 hours of non-stop makeuping people. after that, i have a blast eating and laughing with kak azie and kak izma =_=

p/s : kak azie did offer me to join any other events (if i have time to join it!) like for Air Asia team and even she told me i should go to this makeup workshop (and its FREE!!! yippie!) later on. owh, did i ever tell you that she told me my makeup skills worth rm150 per person? =)

happy! =)

2009-12-02T07:41:00.000-08:00

sayang.. finally you dah letak pic kita kat FB kan? i am so flattered and happy with it =) thanks love..

kadang-kadang..

2009-11-28T07:32:00.000-08:00

kadang2 pabila kita telah penat berusaha

Tuhan uji dengan kesedihan

kita fikir, kita telah buat sehabis baik

lantas, kita yakin pada diri kita

tapi,

Tuhan itu Maha Adil kan?

kita tak patut putus asa

mungkin belum sampai waktunya

dan mungkin,

Tuhan nak aku lebih berusaha.

kadang2,

terasa nak menangis pabila pe kita hajati

tak dapat

lalu,

kita terus-terusan menangisi ketidakpuasan hati terhadap takdir-Nya

tapi,

Tuhan itu Maha Adil, kan?

kadang2,

kita lupa siapa diri kita

kita lalai pada Dia

sesekali gagal menjadi hamba-Nya yang patuh pada-Nya.

jadi,

kita haruslah saling ingat-mengingati

andai hari ini aku jatuh

hulurkan lah tangan Mu wahai Tuhanku

pimpin la tangan ku wahai teman

andai diriku alpa

andai diriku leka

andai diriku berputus asa terhadap apa yang aku usahakan selama ini

kerana...

aku cuma seorang insan yang lemah..

NOW~

2009-11-28T06:21:00.000-08:00

(sekadar gambar hiasan semata-mata!)

1. plan for the upcoming birthday of Mr. Boyfie

2. settle up my mosquitoes in the lab and plan for my next fieldwork project on mosquitoes and also, put all my results for the 1st trip inside a suitable table form

3. search for journals (50 types) and print it out

4. write a proposal and send it to Mr. Boyfie for editing process

5. write draft for Chapter 1 and Chapter 2 and send it to Ziden after Mr. Boyfie check it out (again!)

6. prepare my notes to present to Prof Sofian

7. prepare for next semester thingy

-done-

lega~

2009-11-18T03:06:00.000-08:00

exam dah habis..

nak tulis tu jek..

papai

=p

praise to God..

2009-11-09T19:46:00.000-08:00

1 paper down,

another 4 papers that i need to focus on..

praise to dear God

i managed to answer the questions..

it felt so worthy

all those memorizing, papers and other sacrifices

that were made earlier on..

but,

a whole lot of things awaits me

4 PAPERS, HERE I COME!

=')

2009-11-09T04:08:00.000-08:00

happy 2nd month anniversary love..

may God bless us..

=)

i love you, angel..

=)

2009-11-08T19:03:00.000-08:00

you make my day..

thanks love

damn i am falling on you so hard

that i think i might going insane

just because of loving you

=)

p/s: if you come in contact with this guy, could you
please send him back to me?
thank you ^_^

self-obsession

2009-11-07T07:29:00.001-08:00

yes people..

i am presenting my own self..

just simply because
...
...
...
...
...
...
...
...
...
...

I AM SO GODDAMN BORING AND TENSION!

haish... Mr. Boyfie, please scold me =(

keinginan yg mendalam

2009-11-04T20:23:00.000-08:00

tibe2 keinginan yg melampau

untuk memiliki hp ini semakin meningkat.

sampaikan termimpi2 untuk

2 hari berturut2.

bermula dengan mengangkat hp ini

ketika tido dan tersedar apabila

sayang yg bagi msg...

haish ^_^"

p/s: sayang, nak hp ni leh tak? =p

ikon IPT

2009-11-04T19:52:00.000-08:00

it happened a month ago but i could not find myself any time to write about it. oh well, it is not a big deal after all. i got an offered to join for a reality programmed TV show called Icon IPT where representatives from all all over universities in Malaysia to compete with each other and become the Icon of IPT. you guys did know what IPT stands for, right? its Institut Pengajian Tinggi in Malaysia lorr, haish.. =p

we had casting here and there and my baju was being sponsored by Singojoyo biz. and boy i did not know that we have a photo session and pfftt... my hair was unspeakable, i have to say that it was a REALLY BAD HAIR DAY ^_^"

but i do get a cute partner though, he's wearing same color with my wedding clothes, heee~ Mr. Boyfie, DON'T GET JEALOUS ye sayang =)

credit to my girlfriend, Yam because she was helping me during the whole process from the beginning till the end of the photoshoot. she helped me the clothes, the hair and giving me support (lots of it!).. thanks babe! =)

overall, it was a nice experienced and yeah, i wish i got to the next level but luck wasn't wit me this time. but hey, it's ok then =) enjoy the pics..

exam mode

2009-10-30T23:09:00.000-07:00

baby tengah study.. jangan kacau! =p

final exam is just around the corner.. i have 5 papers for this semester. basically, its been a week already since study leave has started. i have yet, a lot of things to read and memorize. not only i need to focus on my final, i need to finish up my data for my thesis research. but i do prefer to take the data during semester break since i can keep my focus 100% on it alone. here's a sneak pick on what is going on with my life :

1. my relationship with him its on the road, alhamdulillah =) 1 month and 19 days.. still counting..

2. i have been busy preparing myself for the exam but i have to admit, i DO sleep A LOT, which i DON"T favor it at all.

3. i think i have been putting on few kg lately ='( need to diet back.

4. i am at home, i think my focus are better when i am at home, at least, i have some privacy compared to studying in my room back at college because memorizing means i need A LOT of PRIVACY.

5. i am officially broke... need to say more? i feel like selling some of my heels to people, does anyone wants to buy my heels? the price? we can negotiate with it later on..

busy mode on

2009-10-22T20:26:00.000-07:00

sorry coz dah lama tak update blog..

quite bz lately..

papai =)

i miss you =(

2009-10-14T00:47:00.000-07:00

i miss you =(

i need to be out of your sight for several days

and somehow,

it seems like years..

i am going to miss you badly..

can i just cut you into pieces and bring you together with me?

=(

baby misses you so much..

open house at essmat's

2009-10-12T20:49:00.000-07:00

thanks essmat and the gang for making this event
a success..
thanks yam for such a wonderful food..
its really mouth watering, and tasteful..
and thanks everyone =)

conservation's trip

2009-10-11T19:44:00.000-07:00

fun + superb = tiring
=)

gado =(

2009-10-05T23:30:00.000-07:00

i hate to have a fight with you cause it makes me sad. i hate it when you hurt me. i hate it when you choose your friends instead of me. i hate it when you do things without me knowing it. i hate it so much! why? i hate it when you make me feel like crying. i hate it so much that it hurts me llike hell. how could you do this to me? really, how could you? i don't like it at all whenever you are hurting me. cause it is damn painful. damn you love!~ damn you! =(

boy~

2009-10-05T10:44:00.000-07:00

well, its been a while since the last time i heard any news from you. apparently baby is not single anymore. i met someone else, as you wish for. we are still new, less than a month actually. but i am so happy with him. the feeling is great. now, i don't listen to any sad songs anymore. boy, he is such a great guy. he's older than us, matured and a great lover, just like you. but i don't want to compare both of you, you guys are special in different ways. we both know it and this great guy, he is special in his own way. i could not stop smiling whenever i am with him. boy, its hard to let you go at first but as time goes by, i had learn that we are not meant to be together. maybe, that is why God separated us earlier. He knows how much i was in love with you and He don't want me to feel so much pain if it happen later on. boy, there's so many things i want to tell you. him? this new guy? he is tall, taller than you. i could hardly hug him, i must say that =p but yeah, it felt so good to be with him. he loves me as who i am despite that he also feels insecure towards you. i know, you won't come back to me but he is scared that i might walk away from him. boy, he's cleverer than me. though he can't really speaks well in English, but i adore him whenever i look at him. he is silly you know. he loves to see me smile. i think i am falling really hard on him. boy, you don't mind, right? i am sure that you are now happy with someone else. i really hope that your girl take good care of you. i will always remember you as the first guy in my life. boy, there's a saying that goes like this, " although 1st love is unforgettable, but it is possible that the 2nd love is greater than the 1st one". to you Mr. Boyfie, i am definitely in love with you. there's no doubt about that. and i promise that we will work things out no matter what happen, we will still remain together. God will be by our side. we just have to stay true to ourselves, okay? =) 'cause being with you means a lot to me. you have fill me with your love. really, i could not put into words how much i adore you love. and its really insane and indescribable by words. love, can we just promise to each other that what ever happens, we will try our best to stay together?

can you do me a favor?

2009-10-05T04:36:00.000-07:00

(Sorry seems to be.....the hardest word)

Na na nanana

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?

What I got to do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard? oooooooohhh
What do I say when it's all over? (babe)
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

(That's right...)
It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Always seems to me
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

What I do to make you want me? hmmmmmmm
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

(Elton John)
It's sad, so sad
It's a sad sad situation
And it's gotten more and more absurd....ooooh
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Always seems to me
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

Oooh Yeah.....sorry
Na na nanana
Soooorrrrry

What do I do to make you love me?...oooh
What I got to do to be heard? hmmmm
What do I do when lightning strikes me? (yeah)
Yeah.....What do I got to do?
What do I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AbAX9A8Cq0k

i am in the need of playing piano right now. because its melody can make my heart melts, i can released my tension through its music. because through music, it can give me a piece of mind because my mind are now surrounded with all those assignments thingy =p but unfortunately, baby piano at my college can't be use at this moment due to construction that UM had made to my poor college.. hmm.. Mr. Boyfie, could you play me this song using guitar? i would love to see you playing this song for me =)

she's HERE!!

2009-10-03T08:46:00.000-07:00

Date: Sunday, 25 October 2009
Time: 8-10pm
Venue: National Stadium, Bukit Jalil, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Tickets: RM93 (free seating), RM183 (numbered seating), RM283, RM383, RM583.

yes people!! she's coming to Malaysia on this coming October!! yeah, i am so going to go to the concert with ayus!! can't wait to go there and have super fun listening to all Beyonce's songs (did i mention it is held during study week??). well, lets just hope that Rihanna's incident will not happen again. =)

p/s : pic courtesy from Ayus' blog. damn! i have lots of assignments that i need to pay attention too =( sob.. sob...

simple yet adorable~

2009-09-23T02:12:00.000-07:00

dear you,

it's been such a great time having you here beside me. all i can say is, i am truly happy with you by my side. its not that before this i am not happy, but you have added some colors in my life. how could i put this into words? i could not describe how much i am thankful to dear God for letting to be with you by my side. it all started with flirty words and all and we ended loving each other completely. its not even a month relationship but the way we treated each other as if we have known each other forever, as if we have already be together for the rest of our lives. yes, i know we both have bad experience during the past, some mistakes that we made but i am truly grateful that i have you now by my side. you have bring out the best in me, making me laugh and smile throughout the whole day. you can fit in with all my friends, regardless of who and where they come from. its such an honor to be your girlfriend because i think you deserve a better girl which are more better than me. but you choose me instead. i could not express the feelings, could not put it into words how wonderful you are to me. you are such a great guy, lover and friend. so please dear, keep my heart safely and never break it. cause i do not want to feel the pain again.

yours truly,

-ida-

myself part 1 =)

2009-09-23T01:59:00.000-07:00

thanks Mr. Boyfie for this wonderful pic

=)

the guests~

2009-09-22T06:57:00.001-07:00

today, Ben and Thary come to my house as i invited them to celebrate hari raya with me =) ngee~ fortunately, they did not turn into the wrong road, they arrive safely at my house around 4 pm. we had a little chat here and there.. mama and kak ti was serving them with mihun sup and soto. omg! we kept laughing, chatting through several hours! =) it was fun, i get to know them personally and moreover, they are so super genius. i mean, the way they are thinking is far much matured than me! =) and guess what? ben actually give me a gift, a picture of all of us during the breakfasting at Chicken Hartz the other day. isn't it sweet? thanks Ben! and thanks Thary for coming to my house..

p/s : i learn that Prof. Susan is not that bad after all, lol~

raya pics~

2009-09-20T06:22:00.001-07:00

hi peeps! yeah, i know although its a Raya post, i still put lots of my pics =) it is called obsession towards yourself, like what my others would say, "takde keje ke ambik gambar sendiri banyak2!".. hehehe~ at least i think Mr. Boyfie is ok with the fact that his girl like to take lots of pics.. okay, enough saying all these craps. Happy Raya Aidilfitri people!! this year i wear a blue turqoise color baju kurung, mama bought it at First Lady (thanks mama!). our family does not have any color theme so you might see us in the family pics that we have varieties of colors to match with each other =p in the family potret, 2 of my siblings were missing. my eldest brother with his families went back to Kelantan to celebrate Raya with his mother-in-law. another person that is missing is my elder sister because she celebrating Raya with his other side of family (in laws). so, here we are in the pics! =)

p/s : to Mr. Boyfie, enjoy this pic! i know you miss me =p

best wishes~

2009-09-19T20:45:00.000-07:00

selamat menyambut hari raya

maaf zahir dan batin

kepada semua yang mengenali diri ini

=)

10 things about US

2009-09-16T21:24:00.000-07:00

yes, u definitely read it right. US means me and Mr. Boyfie =) while writing this post, he is sitting next to me reading my journal on my thesis =p so, here are 10 things i would like to list down about us..

1. always go with the flow. despite of having no plan, we
managed to go out and have SUPER FUN the other day =)

2. in certain time, we act as if we don't know each other, that is SO LAME!
=p

3. we always try something new. you named it, from movies, places,
food, shoes.. almost everything! =)

4. we always go to the library pretending to study and end up
playing facebook-ing at the end of the day =p

5. sometimes we tend to wear almost similar color of clothes although we did
not plan it in the first place.

6. we messaging each other every second although we meet each other
almost everyday!! can't get enough of each other.

7. we tend to let the action speaks louder than words.
=p

8. we love walking down the street
(actually HE made me walking on the street while SHE made him
enter every shoes boutique around the corner / mall)

9. both of us sweet in our own ways.

10. definitely we are in love with each other and are thankful
to dear God =)

the different color code represents our thoughts. red is what He said and purple represents me and blue represents us =) and again, i know its pretty lame but i could not help myself from writing this lame post. oh, and 1 more thing =) damn he make me falling real hard for him =p opsie!!!

die-hard zoologist meets the botanist!

2009-09-16T00:04:00.000-07:00

on 9th of September 2009 (did you noticed the number is DAMN nice??), we planned a breakfasting so-called ceremony at Chicken Hartz in Sunway Pyramid. it was super FUN! =) we had a blast and lots of memories, not to mention LOTS of pictures!! we were cam-whoring and God knows what on earth other people were thinking! well, here are some of the pics that i managed to upload while in Ecophysiology Marine class =p some of my classmates were doing their presentation on the scientific report in order to complete our 5% marks in contribution for our final marks in this semester.

yeah, i know i AM naughty =)

the absolutely mouth-watering + sedap-ing food!

thats all peeps! =)

p/s : sorry for the late post. i have been busy with dearie Mr. Boyfie and some assignments that need to pay attention to =p

10 facts about mr. boyfie =p

2009-09-10T05:46:00.000-07:00

as you can see, i am happily in a relationship with Mr. Boyfie =) here are some facts about him that you might want to know :

1. he is tall with 179- 180 cm.

2. he is totally lame, jerk and pathetic! but
an amazing person that can make you go ga-ga!

3. he is romantic, sweet talker despite the fact that he's jokes are
definitely annoying and not appropriate at all!

4. he loves Topman, Zara and Levis'. kind off a metrosexual guy.

5. he used a really addictive perfume =p ngee~

6. he is extremely clever student! i adore that =)

7. he is really good in drawing, i can assure you that when he
draw my potret later on.

8. he can play guitar!

9. he likes black because the fact that the color makes
him look thinner.

10. lastly, he is truly in love with me =p

yes, i know i am very lame person but who cares? =p its my blog anyway, hihihih!

=)

2009-09-07T10:55:00.000-07:00

it's already official peeps!

=)

could not stop smiling whenever thinking about him.

you are so lame dear!

but i still heart you..

=)

tagged by Noyu =)

2009-09-06T20:30:00.000-07:00

1. anda rasa anda hot?

> entah la, tak hot pun.. tapi kadang2 with the right makeup and outfit, i feel super hot and fabulous! =p huhuhuuh!

2. upload gambar kesayangan anda.

3. kenapa anda suka and sayang gambar ni?

> first picture its because i look amazingly nice and i kind off like the pose =p while second pic is special because i was with one of my best friend forever =) plus de several pics lagi but couldn't find it inside my lappy..

4. lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?

> sweet escape from gwen steffani dalam radio hot.fm =)

5. selain daripada nama anda sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dengan nama apa?

> baby
> ida
> love

6. tag 7 orang lagi tanpa kekesalan

> kak sha yang sweet and cute =)
> shopaholic girl
> vulpininja (betul ke aku eja ni? hahahah!)
> dayah! (kenapa de tanda seru? hahahha!)
> zul kena cepat2 jawab
> atiqah ex schoolmate
> dila yang study kat Canada =p

uncertainties..

2009-09-03T00:04:00.000-07:00

there are some uncertainties in my relationship. although i had already met someone special, someone that understands me better, accept me as who i am without even looking back at my past, makes me happy, makes me laugh, makes me smile the whole day just to looked at his messages, someone that will make me just take a peek at him (without him noticing of course!) =p i don't know whether it is love or just a fling or something. i like to hear his voice, i love the fact that he's not a typical romantic guy although his jokes does not make sense after all. the way he messages me with all those funny words and sometimes makes me smile when he said that he loves me or like me or something. but until now, after it seems like 2-3 weeks we have already been in this state, i haven't said anything to him. not even "i miss you" or "i love you" or give him kisses in the messages. all i did was, "i heart you" or i just smile while reading his messages. its like the word does not came out from my mouth. i do realize about it, probably i am scared to spill out those meaningful words. in those days, i would definitely told boy, "i miss you sayang", "love you soooooo much!" and the list goes on. but after being in a relationship with few guys (some jerks, some i just can't bring myself to fall in love with), i feel that those words might hurt me in the future. i am scared, i am truly am. what if he is just a small chapter in my life? what if he does not love me at all? what if he is just playing with those words? what if he is not really mean those things? all my friends were trying to convinced me that he is a good guy and a great catch. they told me, i will never regret with him because he will take good care of me. i know that, i really do. but as a matter of fact, he did not make it official yet which make me wonder too. i mean, other guys would probably propose the girl that they like but him? he told me the status is not important. i know but its risky, its not even a secure relationship. but he admitted that i am his girlfriend. and i did admit it too that he is mr. boyfie. this is all confusing. hmm, can anyone give me an opinion on this? =(

randomness =(

2009-08-28T21:46:00.000-07:00

oh well, i have flu and fever again

for it seems like forever..

sometimes i would wake up doing great

but sometimes,

i would wake up feeling a little drowsy

here and there..

how i wish i will feel better again =(

happy birthday my BFF =)

2009-08-27T02:53:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday dear friend, Siti Mariam =)

dear friend,

i can never describe with words

how much you mean to me

we shared laughter and tears

we make ups and break ups

we always have those little nights

where you and i

will spent it

with laughter, gossips and problems

you lighten up my days

with a spirit that no one has it

but only you.

you make people around you laughs

with your silly little jokes

knowing you is the best thing

that has ever happen in my life

hopefully, this relationship will lasts forever.

I HEART YOU! =)

apparently today is yam's birthday. she turns 21st now. since today she wanted to spend her day with essmat (aka her bf), i decided to treat her with nice food. so yesterday, after my class had finished, we went to Mid Valley to spend some quality time together. its been ages since i knew her =) actually, i met her on 2007, she was my course-mate (but now, not anymore since i already changed my course!). we went to the same college (but now she stayed at 12th college, pity me =( and we are the closest pair ever in the college! we shared the same taste of fashion, even though our taste differs but in can't deny that both of us LOVE to play dressups and makeups!! and after couple of years, we are still remain closed to each other. yes, we do have fights, disagreements about several things here and there, but thank God, we are still remain close to each other.

okay, enough of the intro about our relationship! =) well, basically yesterday wasn't a happy-starting-ending story for both of us! why? because it starts with a heavy rain that made our clothes (oh! there's a theme yesterday.. and both of us should wear something pretty and nice =p ) SANGAT2 BASAH!! to make things worst, it almost (i repeat, almost!) destroy our makeups but luckily we wore helmets with "penutup plastik di depan nya". we went straightly to delicious cafe, book pur place there and hunt for new clothes and shoes for her (yeah, she loves shopping so much! its undescribable how much she can spend per day, ngee~). she wanted to wear something decent and girlish for her date today with her bf.

after those moments of "yam, bukan baju tu you dah de ke?", and "yam, baju ni cantek tak?" and "bukan kasut camtu cam you punya hari tu ke?", we went straight to delicious to stuffened (betul kah?). she ordered something yang pelik from delicious' menu while i ordered chocolate shakes and classic seafood lasagna (my favourite!) =p after that, we went back to UM but on our way back, we went to Vista to meet mr. boyfie because he wanted to lend me his notes =) thanks dear! really appreaciate those notes although it really makes me go ga-ga =p huhuhu!

well, there you go, a long entry about our celebration last night! sorry babe, couldn't think of anything what to buy for your pressie =( sorry and hope you like it.

i heart both of you =) hihihihi!

her 1st appearance as a model =)

2009-08-26T07:17:00.001-07:00

my younger sister had appeared in the latest issue of Yezz magazine.. check it out! =)

fieldwork insects biology :)

2009-08-23T01:34:00.000-07:00

date : 7 - 9 of August 2009
place : Pusat Pengajian Luar UM, Gombak
subject : insects biology

welcome Ramadhan :)

2009-08-21T23:22:00.000-07:00

today is the 1st day of Ramadhan

alhamdulillah dapat berpuasa lagi..

masih lagi diberi kesempatan untuk berpuasa...

jom kumpul pahala banyak2! :)

shopping spree! :)

2009-08-20T06:27:00.000-07:00

some random pics that i took while waiting for my sweetie!

yes, my diet is spoiled by these
extra-calorie-can't-resists food!!

my hair sucks!

my sweetie BFF =)

oh! my new blouse which i bought at Nichii.
it was on sale with 20% off by the way =p

and my new blush-bronzer from Revlon.
its the latest collection of
Revlon Beyond Natural products!
i chose Peach color =)

today i went out with my old school friend (yasmin, my another best friend forever girlfriend!) to mid valley since i wanted to do some shopping. for your info, i just got my money from the ptptn and yeah, i was in the mood for shopping =) we had McDonalds for lunch, watched The Proposal (staring Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds), had Extreme Mocha from San Francisco Coffee and we went for clothes and makeups hunting! it was really fun to go out with her!! =') we seldomnly meet up since she is still studying at UiTM Jengka doing her final semester in accountancy. it was really tiring, with a really full-look-alike sardine KTM (we went back home around 6 pm something and hell knows what the train looks like!!). i miss her, i am truly miss my besties! thanks min for catching up everything with me! you are THE BEST!

i think that everybody has already know that my younger sister was one of the finalist in Lipice contest. well, so here it goes, some of the pics inside the latest Remaja magazine. oh! grab it fast people! =p

her pic, her 1st appearance in magazine =)

what on earth am i putting my own pics? well, just simply want to irritate you people =P

posing my new camera again and again, ngee~

p/s : 1) ayus and i had already talked to each other =) glad its finally over!

2) i saw these heels at Nose.. SUMPAH SANGAT2 CANTEK ok? ='( i want it badly......

3) my "special someone" is missing me =p hihihih!

pertandingan perlancaran roket peringkat kebangsaan..

2009-08-19T08:00:00.001-07:00

yes people, using my new camera, i took all these pictures :) credits to myself.. well, apparently i went there with my best friend forever, yam! this whole event took place at Padang Varsiti, UM. it does not really a huge event but it was nice to spend some time with all my friends :)

omg!

2009-08-17T02:29:00.000-07:00

blamed it on the hormones..

i am in the mood of happiness..

OMG!!!

thank you dear God :)

when all the things are mixing up

2009-08-15T01:13:00.000-07:00

for know reason, my mind is stuck with you. yes, you. though it was just a flirting-naughty kind of relationship that does not requires any commitment nor love, i am accidentally like you. yes, it is hard to admit it but yeah, when you started to give me those hints, i was trying to avoid anything that might ruined our friendship. because i knew that deep inside my heart, i am not mentally prepared for any serious relationship. however, you struck me a with a trapped, asking me aboutdecided what i felt about you.

but after a while, again, after all those denials, confessions and words involved. you decided its better to just stick with the normal us. i was shocked actually, probably i was expecting something else back then :p

i don't know.

probably, we should just let the time construct everything for us.

i don't know what will happen in the end. i don't have the intention be hurt or hurt someone else. i am honestly so sick of fighting, crying or being lonely. i wanted to lead a happy life. i want to smile, i don't want to feel lonely anymore. and yet, i do know that both of us had a painful past where we can't really recover from it. but do you know something, its the past that actually thought us to be strong, to be matured.

no, i don't blame you. lets just pray for the best.

melodies (:

2009-07-31T00:52:00.000-07:00

the music that he played with the piano is extremely nice. my target, to learn this song starting from today! :) wish me luck!

freshies of za'ba!

2009-07-30T09:14:00.000-07:00

actually benda ni dah lama dah took place tapi tak sempat nak update since i was too busy nak settlekan hal2 blajar and kelas.. lagipun time tu pictures lak takde, ni pun baru jek ambik dari dayah :) pape pun budak2 cell ni sangat2 la baek and best! so tak sia2 la bising2 and main2 dengan diorg sume.. (: yg penting kitorg enjoyed makan kfc sama2, main sama2! kan?

thank you abah! (:

2009-07-25T08:19:00.000-07:00

this is my mom and my younger sis at Oldtown Kopitiam in Kajang. we had our break after doing some shopping at Tesco, earlier in the morning. then, mama wanted to make a new spectacle since her ones are already old. the three of us were really had fun! this is the first time mama went to Oldtown because mama is not really an outdoor person :) however, she liked her hazelnut mocha coffee and the double kaya-butter bread. while me and su loves our hor fun mee (: its delicious, i can bet you on that! :p

well, its been ages since i wanted to own a camera. luckily me, abah was willingly to support me a little bit of money (at the beginning, i thought i wanted to give a share too). thank you abah! tonight, abah and i went to kajang and guess what?

1. sony rechargable battery.

2. a big tripod! yes, i am thrilled.

3. the bag....

4. the box.

5. the camera, a semi-pro Fujifilm Finepix S1000fd

THANKS ABAH! :) LOVE YOU
AND I PROMISE THAT I WILL TRY MY VERY BEST
TO GET A GOOD RESULT!

lunch @ Pizza Hut seksyen 14

2009-07-24T00:36:00.000-07:00

supposedly both of us went out with khalaf but it seems that he's too buy with his life and girlfriend. so, we decided to just spent it on ourselves. we had sensai delight menu at pizza hut section 14. we had our usual girly talked and laughed out, gossiping and etc. i just love having a girly day out (:

ecology night! =_=

2009-07-23T09:09:00.000-07:00

i don't have lots of pictures about this event tonight because i still haven't bought a new camera. but here are some of the pics that i managed to take it with my camera phone. it was great, the students and all the lecturers are so sporting. credits to Prof. Dr. Mohd Sofian Azirun, Prof. Dr. Rosli Hashim, Prof. Dr. Rosman and Prof. Dr. Yusoff for giving us support in this event. not to forget, to all my coursemates, seniors and juniors who were willingly have time to spent it with us. hope that our juniors will keep on continuing our tradition. oh well, i want to get some sleep now. goodnight everyone =_=

happy belated birthday dayah! =_=

2009-07-21T08:29:00.001-07:00

thanks dayah for the deliciously and eatable secret recipe cake and kfc.. happy belated 22nd birthday.. may the angels look upon you. may God bless you.. may you are truly bless with people around you.. thank you for the friendship that we have shared together. may it will lasts forever =_=

emosi terganggu

2009-07-17T22:26:00.000-07:00

i couldn't sleep last night.

my brain were playing all those memories between me and him.

why?

i don't know.

i have plan this weekend.

to settle down my project, to sit back and enjoy my life.

but i keep thinking about him.

why?

why?

yes people, i know that lately my blog has been all about my words.

words that come from my heart, my soul, my mind.

i just let it slip into my body, controlling the emotional part of me.

oh, i know i am going to stop this instantly.

but please,

just give me some time to re-connecting my mind with my body.

give me some time.

:(

penat :(

2009-07-14T10:41:00.000-07:00

actually few days ni sangat2 la penat. nak online pun tak sempat, still lagi minggu add and drop pastu dengan thesis lagi, induksi senior and junior lagi. hari ni jek dah la makan dah banyak! terasa cam nak puasa lak tapi tak sure lagi. i letih sangat2 rasanye walaupun tahu salah sendiri sebab tak tahu nak managed masa. but hmm, hopefully lepas ni dapat budget masa dengan cemerlang.

kepala dah kurang berserabut. biar lah pasal dia, if kita suka kat dia dalam diam pun takpe, kan? ala, lagipun sekarang ni terlalu banyak benda yang nak difikirkan. boy, hmm... rindu sangat2 kat dia tapi diam2 jela kat dalam hati. nak bitau kat sape lagipun, kan? if bitau kat kawan2 pun diorang dah tahu and diorang suruh banyak sabar and doa banyak2. yang pasal dia lak? memang kita dah tak nak fikir pasal dia lagi. kita malas nak cakap pape pasal dia lagi. kita tahu dia pun de banyak benda nak fikir. kita kadang2 kesian kat dia tapi dah kita tak leh nak tolong. sebab kita pernah rasa pe dia rasa dulu. memang sakit, sampai kita tak cure after 2 tahun. ala, bukan dia tahu pun kita suka kat dia. kita lagi suka dia tak tahu, rimas if dia tahu. terasa cam dia pun nak jauhkan diri dia dari kita padahal kita ikhlas nak tolong dia. mungkin dia rasa kita suka kat dia so dia tak nak bagi harapan. giler geli ayat, hahahaha! tapi kita dah tak nak suka dia. kita tak nak ambik berat pasal dia lagi sebab dia pun tak ambik berat pasal kita.

kita cian tengok dia, makin kurus tapi dah dia sendiri pun tak cuba untuk okay. kita tahu dia sedih tapi dia kena sedar, kena tabah. hopefully dia tabah, kita selalu doa untuk kawan2 kita. kita terasa dia tak cakap sorry pun kat kita. kita tak mengharap sekadar hope dia jaga hati kawan dia. tapi dah dia pun tak jaga, kita nak cakap pe lagi, kan? kadang2 kita sedih, nape Tuhan selalu uji kita? kita rindu sangat2 kat boy, kita tahu kita nakal sangat2 dulu tapi kita ikhlas sayangkan boy. kita jujur sayangkan boy. kita nak kawin ngan boy. kita sayang dia, cinta dia, kita ikhlas sangat2 tapi nape jadi camni? kita susah nak sayangkan orang lain, kita cuba tapi mesti tak berjaya, nape? mungkin sebab kita tak cukup ikhlas kot. kita tak cukup baik, kan?

kita tak la perfect, kita tak la solat cukup 5 waktu tapi kita cuba sedaya-upaya kita. kita cuba jadi orang yang terbaik, anak yang terbaik, kawan yang terbaik tapi entah la. kita penat, kita letih sayangkan seseorang yang tak sayang kita. kita rindu sangat2 kat boy tapi sape yang faham?? and if kita suka kat dia pun, dia tak jaga hati kita. kita terasa sangat2 dengan dia tapi kita tak nak cakap pape. kita nak ignore jek dia. biar lah dia, kita doakan dia dari jauh ok?

i am exhausted =/

2009-07-12T07:15:00.000-07:00

this weekend is not fun at all. i am tired, moody and upset for no reason. abul wanted to meet me on this coming weekend which i doubt that because its pretty annoying just to thinking of that jerk. oh, i do not want to meet him but i he owes me an apology and damn good reason why he's been lying to me all this while - though i know he might lie to me AGAIN. plus with the confused part in my life, things are not getting better. but now, i refused to think of these stuff that are stuffing inside my head.

to whom who may concern, i am so gonna get rid of you. i don't know whether you noticed it or not but i do like you in a sense that i think you are 1 of a very rare person i ever met. yes, you are crazy and annoying but you makes me laugh. you are nice, you are so unpredictable but i don't know why i like you in the first place. i guess that i would definitely stop from liking you from now on. i'll send a prayer to you, hopefully you are going to be okay. i know its hard but i pray for your happiness in this world.

some things are better being left unsaid, untouch by others. sometimes i do wonder, what is my destiny? who am i? aah! i know that some people do not know me very well, thus they thought that i am the typical girl, the naughty type of girl that loves to go clubbing and such a sociable girl but ain't you got it wrong boy. dammit, if only people do not judge the book by its cover.

what on earth am i thinking?

2009-07-08T20:11:00.000-07:00

the topic itself contain lots of things. there's a hidden meaning that not everyone can read between the lines. oh yes, lately i have been manipulating myself to forget boy and try to keep my self focusing on my new semester. i tend not to think about him, though i really do missed him badly. these several days have yet been such a good time. though i have to convinced myself that its just another step or just another short chapter in my life. i could not explain it into words or even if i tried to, it does not sounds right to me. for this coming semester, yes. i had try to change my view in love, trying to convince myself that i better try to get along with other guy. but the best part is, is true love will ever exist? i am playing with the words, try to make you not to understand me better. love is really pissing me off. i mean, i just can't pretend that it does not bother me at all. oh, please ignore this entry as i think that i am unconsciously writing down all the facts that are not really myself. i am mumbling for no reason as i can't write it down, because i do want some people to read what my heart really feels right now. bye..

bz mode..

2009-07-07T21:52:00.000-07:00

for the time being,
i am so lazy to update my blog since
my class has already started.

when 3 guys and 2 girls are together!

2009-07-04T08:05:00.000-07:00

yes people, can you imagine when there are 5 people inside a Myvi, laughing and chit-chatting with each other? well today, i went out with ayus (my brother lorr), su, kal and robert. we went to mid valley since ayus wanted to go for shopping and after that, we went to jusco balakong to watched Transformers. seriously, it was an absolutely a fantastic movie! but unfortunately for me and su, we have to sit at the 1st row since that all the tickets were already fully booked! it was really a tiring day and since tomorrow i have to go back to um, just so you know that i have NOT packed my things yet! and yes people, instead of packing my things, i choose to blogged about my activities for today. isn't it pathetic? hihihih! ok, i need to start packing my things up since tomorrow abah will send me back to um around 8 am in the morning. fuh! trust me, i really piss off with my college since i will be alone (probably this whole 3rd year) since that all my babes did not get stay at the college. wtf? guess that i need to band myself from any college activity now. don't want to get too involved with college anymore, i'm getting sick of it. bye people, enjoy the pics k :)

all the 5 hungry-looking-people waiting for their lunch to be served
:)

and the menu is.... madam kwan's!

4 out of 5 of us ordered nasi lemak.
it's pretty nice though but i preferred my mama's
nasi lemak since she is the best cooker
i ever known!

nasi bojari that belongs to kal

ayus as usual, craving for sugar and luckily
for him
krispy kreme is now available in mid valley!

there's some sort of showing off lotus cars
which is absolutely
damn nice car!! i want one :'(

ayus bought a guess watch
sangat2 jeles k :p

if you are the t-shirt type boy/girl,
you better get your hands to these brand
its really nice but the price?
a bit expensive compared to the usual tees.
its not mine k, its ayus'.

last minute preparation..

2009-07-03T01:53:00.001-07:00

hi blog! since my new semester is just around the corner, i have already bought several things for me to get back to UM. it requires lots of energy to do the shopping and lots of money while juggling with working at the same time. but i had already quit working at Kumon since yesterday. but i haven't got the chance to pack my super-a-lot-stuff yet! oh, i still have another 1 day to finish up packing things. since this upcoming semester marks my 3rd year of studying (it supposed to be my final year but since i changed my course, i will have to extend for another 1 semester), i will be busy working my ass off with thesis and studies. did i mentioned that all my friends did not get to stay in our college? it means that now i am ALONE!! seriously, eventhough i knew almost the majority of 2nd year students (yeah, i was just exaggerating it, ka-ching!), but i want my girls to be there with me too :'( wtf! i mean there are activite in every activities and hell, they have been kicked out from there. but fortunately, i am thankful too because i still got the chance to stay in college.

back to the topic. i bought several things that i think is necessary while i am in hostel. but these are just some of it, while other stuff such as all the baldi and bakul etc, i already have it. check it out!

flip-flops from tropicana girl, a new purse from the same brand,
shampoo and conditioner from sunsilk, hair serum from loreal,
2 selendang's (i am wearing tudung/selendang while in UM)
all the toiletries and bedaks etc.

some of the notebooks that i bought
for me to write all
the lecture notes if the lecturers di not
give us the photocopy ones.

a good pair of wedges (or flats but as you know me, i don't like wearing
flats because i feel so "pendek")
=)

an over-sized bag that can match any clothes,
be it a baju kurung or even with jeans!
(tips 1# buy an over sized bag that is nice so that you can use it
not only to go to class but also when you go out for shopping!)

the wallet as i mentioned earlier.
it's my 2nd serious wallet
:)

and now... i am officially b-r-o-k-e! isk2 :'(

friends gathering :')

2009-07-02T08:05:00.000-07:00

it's been ages since the last time i met these people. they are my schoolmates, ever since i was in form 1. i exchanged my school in the year 2001 (during the 2nd semester) because abah bought a new house at Kajang. i was placed inside 3 Ruby class. so these girls were some of earliest friend in convent. i loved them ever since then (although we did have some argument here and there but i cherished them with all my heart :') so today, it was supposed to be our class gathering but it seems that only 5 people were there : Razmin, Shanti, Zaitul, Yasmin and me. we laughed like mad person, we talked for it seems like non-stop chatting. we were having a blast! oh, let the pictures do the talking :)

i was in last place, aish! malu2 :p

oh, we should go out again next time, ok girls? :)

malam pertama..

2009-06-29T21:50:00.000-07:00

the registration counter, Cititel Mid Valley

cam whoring before we went to dinner

inside our room.
that is my older sister, a Japanese teacher

tv

the toilet

OMG! i looked thin!

some of my breakfast buffet
(ni 1st round, yang lain tak ambik sebab teruja nak makan!)
huhuhuh!

petang semalam (isnin), kak ti baru jek sampai from Dungun, Terengganu. dia ajak ikut sekali pergi tido kat Cititel Mid Valley untuk semalaman since dia minta temankan dia check-in. yang best nye hotel ni, it's a 5 stars hotel and sangat2 syok untuk pergi ke Mid Valley sebab keluar jek dari hotel, terus nampak Secret Recipe and The Coffee Bean. omg! memang best and sangat2 terharu sebab takde duit nak beli pape, waaaaaaaa! :'( pagi ni kak ti bagi makan kat hotel buffet breakfast. actually, this is my 1st time tido hotel 5 stars. dulu pernah makan kat Sharigha-La Hotel time abah keje dengan Motorola dulu but it was more than 10 years back! so tak ingat lorr.. tido kat hotel ni ok la, not bad tapi harga untuk connect dengan wireless seriously sangat2 mahal.. rm30 for 2 hours and rm60 for 1 day! i mean, what the heck is that? huhuhu! takpe, nasib baik saya stay 1 malam jek, huhuhuh! just joking.. so pagi ni balik selepas almost 2 hours melantak makanan kat buffet hotel. let me say, berapa kali yek makan tadi.. ops! 5x ok pergi makan bertambah2, hahaha! sangat banyak kan sampai merasakan tengah hari ni tak perlu makan pun, hahahaha! nak update banyak aktiviti sepanjang weekend hari tu tapi tak sempat. ignore jela ye kehuru-haraan sequel kisah hidup ku. ala, lagipun sape jek yang baca blog ku ini?? :') sila tinggalkan jejak anda ye supaya saya leh menjejaki anda, hahahah!

birthday party!!!

2009-06-29T21:07:00.000-07:00

the birthday girl with her family :)

me with the gorgeous plus her cousin kid

the double S girls, Sangeetha and Shanti

the three of us (despite the look ghostly look that i have on that nite!)

the rest of the party members :)

to my dearest friend,

it' s been years since we have known each other
through thick and thin
you were always standing beside me
although distance had make us apart
but
we always there for each other
hopefully that this year
will bring us lots of joy and happiness
shed the tears away from us
thank you for all your loved,
kindness and supports

happy 21st birthday dear
may God bless you :')

finale Lipice at Times Square

2009-06-28T07:59:00.000-07:00

i was really proud of my younger sister because she managed to walked in 4 inch high heels and the fact that she was the youngest contestants too! both of my parents were proud with her too :) although i did not get through the finals but i was still happy for her. she got an offered from a magazine to be a model. maybe its her chance to shine her stars.

rehearsal at Hotshoes, PJ

2009-06-28T07:37:00.000-07:00

the orange colour t-shirt guy, he's cute! he is Andrew

my sister stands on the 2nd place

that was their coach for that day :)

this are some of the pictures i managed to grab from my brother's blog. our sister had a rehearsal in Hotshoes at Petaling Jaya on lasy Friday. ayus took a half day off from his office and the three of us went to PJ as early as 4.45 pm from our house. we thought that the road will be congested with lots of cars but fortunately, it was not congested at all! we arrived there around 6 pm and the rehearsal starts at 7 pm! she was using my Guess heels (yes, it is 4 inch high people :p) for the rehearsal and for the big event since the stilettos is the most suitable one. she can cat-walking on the heels (she was the tallest compared to other contestants). before that, ayus brought us to this kedai makan and all the guys there were looking at us as if we were some kind of alien or something! just because we were wearing all these high heels (me and su of course!), ahile ayus were wearing some nice clothes too, you don't have to look at us like we were some kind of weird people, haha! overall, they managed to finished up everything within 2 hours. the trainer was such a funny and sporting guy! :) and yes, i am blogging it only today because i can hardly have enough time to breath since i was too busy with few things to do :) sorry for the late post!

avril lavigne in malaysia 2008!

2009-06-24T23:37:00.001-07:00

i know, even though its been ages but i forgot to shared with you about my experienced going to Avril's concert on last August 2008. i have won 2 pair of tickets worth rm376 from Hot magazine in a contest. it requires you to take a picture of yourself, trying to imitate Avril's look. and yes, yours truly was the one hell lucky winner. so, ayus and i went to the concert at stadium merdeka. it was fun and superb and the crowd just enjoy her music!

wish that Avril will come again to Malaysia :')

28 things about me

2009-06-23T01:28:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Fnd Vien Sam

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my flist, so let me know with whom I'm friends!

01. Your Name, or explain your Chosen Name:
zuraidah but i preferred if you call me ida :)

02. Mental Age:
not more than 21??

03. Single or Taken:
single!

04. Favorite Book:
a lot actually. p/s : i love you, harry potter series and some books written by virgina andrews

05. Favorite Song or Album:
a lot but currently i am in love with love story by Taylor Swift, The Show by Lenka, my life sucks without you by Kelly Clarkson.

06. What do you believe is your calling in life? Your greatest passion?:
i love writing and do calculations and also learn bout diseases.

07. What's your worst recurring nightmare/biggest fear?:
i don't know

08. Faith, has you any? And if so, what, and if not, why not?:
i have faith in my religion and i have faith in myself and others. faith keep us going.

09. Do we know each other outside of LJ/FB? Do we want to?:
yup! you are my ex-coursemate. duh!! :p

10. What's your philosophy on life?:
if others can do, so do you :)

11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?:
what bottle???

12. Would you tell me something painful if it was in my best interest?:
maybe..

13. What is your favorite memory of us?:
when you "teman" me at that particular night while i go inside the "longkang" to take my thing. it was hellish!! :')

14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?:
lots of sugar, creamy and chocolates and lots of everything that is nice to eat!! :)

15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
love to laugh out loud :p

16. You can have three wishes what are they?:
nak kurus lagi - have lots of money - be a bit taller :') hik3..

17. What is your favorite food?:
whatever food that my mummy cooks for me :)

18. Which country is your spiritual home?:
Malaysia lorr.. saya anak Malaysia!

19. What is your big weakness?:
kuat makan, such a big spender :p sshh!

20. Do you think I'm a good person?:
yup! you are a good friend darlz :)

21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?:
additional mathematics and history!

22. Describe your accent:
American-English and can be campur ones too!

23. If you could change anything about me, would you?:
nope! but smile more please dearie :-*

24. What do you wear to sleep?:
t-shirt and shorts

25. Gender identity?:
female lorr..

26. Affectionate/sexual orientation?:
tak faham??

27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?:
lets create such a wonderful memories together. pergi makan2 and have a blast bersama orang2 yang tersayang! but hey, don't say that :'(

for those who are reading this, you have been tagged! :)

kumon centre

2009-06-22T20:49:00.000-07:00

my answer book. i am an English instructor
(aka the English teacher)

some of the student were doing their class work.

one of my favourite student, hazim.
he is super-duper cute!!

this is umar. he gave me a sweet yesterday.
auww.. i was touched! :')

another favourite student, jason.
he has the tembam-mest cheek i ever met!
and he's such a cutie too!

(do you noticed that all the students were wearing red colour t-shirt)
it was a coincidence! :p

hi blog! as you all know, i am working at Kumon Centre. its a place of learning Mathematics and language learning. it offers only 2 subjects, Math and English. however, the learning techniques are different compared to the school basis. the student are from age between 4 - 15 years old. basically every student has its own worksheet, a class work where he or she need to pass it up to the instructor and another one would be his / her homework where she should do it once a day (it depends actually on the student. if he / she is weak, they have to do extra worksheet per day). apparently, at my work place, the price per subject is RM 120 (if i am not mistaken, the price is standardized). if you more inquiries, you may look here or give it a call at 1800-88-1010.

internet freak!

2009-06-21T23:37:00.000-07:00

dammit, i am such an internet freak!
habis la bil elektrik kat umah melambung..
aduh!!
baby-san, sila berhenti main internet..
but i cant sebab seronok main
and plus,
leh cuci mata!

hahahahhah!
(ketawa yang berunsur kan kejahatan :p)

why am i such a sucker in love?

2009-06-21T06:05:00.000-07:00

yeah, i know the title itself may causes 1001 questions to your mind. basically i am such a sucker for love. i mean, in the search of finding a true love (yeah, right?!), i am being too picky. its not that i think i am such a hot chick or something but after boy left me, i can hardly fall in love with other guy! to tell you the truth, i always fall for the bad guy. the naughty type with good looks. its lame, isn't it? what can i say, they are so attractable! hahahaha! here are some of the guys that i always fall in love with :

1. their looks that has a mixture of naughty + bad boy
look. stylish is also included!
2. can speak / write in english.
3. can play instruments such as drum, guitar or even the singer!
4. romantic but not the type like Leonardo de Carpio
but someone like Owen Wilson.
5. the quiet type but likes to make me laugh and be with me.
6. have a great smile!
7. adorable face which i can definitely stare at him for hours!!
8. loyal, honest, caring, etc..
9. full of surprises (i like it!)..

but again, i met these guys that are bunch of cheaters. OMG! especially the ones who were born with good looking face. he's the jerks among others. ooh, what on earth am i talking about? yes, i know that i am mumbling but i just simply want to write about this topic :p if you don't want to read it, then just click at the "x" button on your screen. thank you! :)

makeup tips 2 :)

2009-06-20T22:51:00.000-07:00

(hiasan semata-mata, tiada kena mengena dengan tips yang bakal diberikan :p)

hi blog! since i have nothing beneficial to do at home on this holiday, i decided to give some makeup tips so that you can try it on your own! :) how interesting, right? this look is suitable for dating, hanging out with your girlfriends or even at your college dinner! ngee~ basically, to achieve this look, all you need is a few basic stuff.

firstly, we have to do the face. choose a good foundation (be a liquid foundation or two way cake.. but for me, since my skin is not that good, i used liquid foundation from Revlon!). if you have extra money, please do invest on a very good foundation. my suggestion will be Revlon Colorstay or MAC (yes, i am a big fan of MAC products). liquid foundation has a good coverage for your face but unfortunately, its a bit thick compared to two way cake foundation. below are the products that i used to achieved this look.

1. liquid foundation brush from elianto.
2. blusher brush from elianto.
3. Revlon Colorstay in warm golden.
4. select cover up from MAC in N42.
5. blot powder in medium dark.
6. blusher from MAC in springsheen.

i used blot powder because it helps to keep my skin free from looking oily (betul kah ayat ini?). apply everything on your face, the liquid foundation followed by blot powder and blusher. make sure that you applied it correctly to your face.avoid putting too much of foundation, ok?

next step, will be the eyes.

1. volume express cat eyes mascara from Maybelline.
2. eyeshadow from MAC in brun colour.
3. blossom shadow from elianto.
4. eyeshadow brush from elianto.
5. blending brush from elianto.
6. eyelash curler (bought it at watson).

mix the brun and blossom shadow to your eyes. since elianto product is a bit "bersepah", you need to be careful while applying it to your eyes. and the mascara from Maybelline is a worth buying product because it opened your eyes. memang cantik!

finally, the lips. i preferred nude colours because i would like people to noticed my eyes instead of my lips! :)

1. lipstick from MAC in hug me.
2. lipgloss from Maybelline.
3. lip liner from Maybelline in rose 1.
4. lip brush from elianto.

enjoy playing with the makeup! :) happy trying ok?

(pictures were taken inside my room, heheh!)

1st photoshoot for her :)

2009-06-20T05:30:00.001-07:00

su with lisa surihani, spoke person of lipice :)

us, stucked in traffic jams but still doing the best..
smiling at my camera!

yes, kami memang begini :)

the jam was so unspeakable!

the pizzas

kelaparan :(

(pic krispy kreme tak dapat diletakkan kerana dikhuatiri ada yang memaki hamun sebab asyik2 makan donut itu sahaja :p)

hi there! :) as you all know, my younger sis got herself into top 12th of Lipice contest. yesterday (on friday) was the photo shoot event at karangkraf. just to keep you guys informed that she is the youngest finalist and also to lots of people amazement, she is among the tallest! well, apparently on next week we (it refers to ayus aka the driver, me as the co-pilot and su aka the model) need to go to petaling jaya for the catwalk practise and the next day, we have to go to times square for the final event. i am really excited and are actually looking forward to see it. yesterday was overall full of hectic and congested road that are filled with lots of cars! i mean, we were trapped inside the car for it seems like forever (almost 2 hours something)! ayus were craving for sugar while me and su were both were starving. after ayus bought krispy kreme (again, yes, i know people.. don't be jealous ok?), we went straight to pizza hut to grab some pizza. but tak habis pun and last2 bawak balik rumah untuk mama makan :) tu jela cite hari semalam, hehehe!

(p/s : mama abah both are excited to watch su live in action, cat-walking in front of the audience! wish her all the best!! sila cuba untuk menang rm3000 itu yek :p)

40 secrets for the nosy people :p

2009-06-18T08:20:00.000-07:00

Type the answers for the 40 Secrets Questions about yourself.
Be honest no matter what.
If I tag you, you have to do one!

1.) Have you ever been asked out?
yup..

2.) Where was your default picture taken?
in my sister's bedroom.

3.) What's your middle name?
i don't have one.

4.) Your current relationship status?
well, should i answer on this one? single and available.

5.) Does your crush like you back?
crush? do i have one? lols

6.) What is your current mood?
neutral! na-da, zero feeling, hihihih!

7.) What color of underwear are you wearing?
it's a secret! sshh!

8.) What color shirt are you wearing?
black and white.

9.) Missing something?
my 1st love, where are you??

10.) If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
never let go of boy. wanted to tell him how much i loved him, always until now.

11.) if you must be an animal for one day, what animal would you be?
dolphin! because they are so adorable! or maybe kitten??

12.) Ever had a near death experience?
yup!

13.) Something you do a lot?
sleeping, online, reading magazines, daydreaming :p ops!

14.) The song stuck in your head?
love story by taylor swift.

15.) Who did you copy and paste this from?
Fnd Vien Sam's facebook.

16.) Name someone with the same birthday as you?
ady, a 1 year junior from me at UM.

17.) When was the last time you cried?
around 4-something pm today.

18.) have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
when i was 12, hardly a song, i make it into poems.. lol!

19.) If you could have one super power what would it be?
the one with can turn back the time.

20.) what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
their smile and height.

21.) What do you usually order from starbucks?
never been there (i know its lame!) but anything that has chocolate base in it, nyum2!

22.) What's your biggest secret?
i tell you what, since it's a secret.. why should i tell you about it, right?

23.) Favorite color?
pink, blue and purple.

24.) Do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows?
not really. very seldom.

25.) What's on your FB wall?
how would i suppose to know?

26.) What are you?
i am completely a human being aka homo sapiens.

27.) Do you speak any other language?
malay. trying to learn japanese language too.

28.) What's your favorite smell?
lavender and chocolatey smell! also vanilla.

29.) Describe your life in one word.
unpredictable!

30.) have you ever kissed in the rain?
yes! ops! i did it again!

31.) what are you thinking about right now?
sleepy~

32.) Ever felt you're good for nothing?
sometimes..

33.) What should you be doing?
take a shower, pray and go to sleep!

34.) Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
hmm, can't remember.

35.) How often do u talk to God?
5 times per day (paling2 kurang la kan)

36.) Do you like working in the yard?
nope!

37.) if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
i love my last name exactly as it is now.

38.) Do you act differently around the person you like?
nope but i act more manja to him.. (blush**!)

39.) What is your natural hair color?
black!

40.) Who was the last person to make you cry?
the boy that taught me about love.

so, now i am tagging anyone that are reading this! lols!! have fun guys!

attention girls!

2009-06-15T20:58:00.000-07:00

yes, i am calling all the 3 Rubies girls! you are invited to come to a small gathering on 30th of June 2009 (Tuesday) at Metro Point Kajang. i am looking forward to see all of you! hopefully for those that are reading this, please inform me back via friendster, facebook, myspace or even in blogger. or if you have my number, you can strictly instant message me or call me for more info. thanks girls, i am looking forward to see you!

in the zone of fabulosity

2009-06-14T20:43:00.000-07:00

i just simply want to share with you about a book that teaches you on what is fabulosity and how to get it. i am sure that all of us knew Kimora Lee Simmons, a model and also a creative director of Baby Phat, not to mention a mother of 2 kids. her book is quite interesting, funny and witty. it defines her true self where by you can actually feel like she is talking to you through out the whole 262 pages. basically the book is all about how to lead your life in a fabulous way! though the book is written for women but i think guys can actually read it in order to understand how goddess (it's so-Kimora you know!) women are! :) there are 16 laws that she herself hold on to it. well, if you got the chance (and time!), ladies, grab this book and enjoy reading it! have fun with the guidelines. but just incase you are not the type who loves witty, funny and fun book (or simply because you hated Kimora herself), just ditch the book.

(p/s : i feel fabulous! :p)

mid valley, again!

2009-06-13T05:23:00.000-07:00

"again!" what is that supposed to mean? well, u see. this whole 2 weeks of school holiday was really hectic. basically because all my sisters from Malacca and Terengganu were back and when they were at home, we went out almost everyday! we might go out to pay the bills, or just go to buy some stuff at Tesco, or even just simply for the sake of going out. hehehe! and again means that on last week, ayus and i had already went to Mid Valley. and this week, together with su, we went straightly to Mid to buy something and just "berjalan-jalan".

holly shit! i look chubby giler! darn, kena kuruskan badan lagi.
su after getting her hair cut at Hairzone, Kajang.

look what i bought! sumpah comel plus it's pink in colour. walaupun harganye mahal but again, saya sangat suka packaging nya :) lagipun bila ada kotak2 sebegini, boleh simpan barang2 dan mengelakkan daripada habuk2 melekat pada barang kita or bersepah2 kita meletakkan barang.. (ignore ayat yang berputar-belit ini).

jeng.. jeng.. ini adalah limited edition from Kotex! the price
is RM 16.90 (something2.. forgot!) at guardians.

this is something that ayus bought for su :

1. Revlon lip gloss in nude lustre
2. MAC eyeshadow in tempting
3. Nair hairwax

that's all for today :) have a nice day everyone. sayonara!

l.i.p.i.c.e

2009-06-11T00:57:00.000-07:00

my younger sister

yours truly :p

hello blog! :) well, the results for the lipice contests has been announced (well, not officially announced!). but hey, for the battle, my younger sister got the Top 12 contestants, which mean that she can chance a chance to win RM 3000 in cash! hahhahaha! though i was not the chosen one, but at least someone in the family does :) again, congratulation to her. guess that i can't go back to UM since i need to accompany her (together with ayus) to go for the photoshoot. well, together lets pray that she managed to grab those prizes RM 300o cash! (sila belanja abang dan kakak anda ye yang telah banyak bertungkus-lumus, hahaha!) :p

(p/s : thanks to everyone that has been voted for me during the voting period)

dilemma :(

2009-06-09T07:30:00.000-07:00

kenangan BTN di Ayer Keroh, Melaka
pembantu mahasiswa sesi 2008/2009

kumpulan 16 :)

well, i am a little bit confused about going back to UM or not. yes, being a facilitator last year was nice and extremely fun! i really enjoyed working with other people and also broaden my thoughts. yes, it was tiring during the whole week of Minggu Haluansiswa session 2008/2009. i thought this year, "hey, i should do it again!" but my family told me not to go since they said that just take a rest for this whole 1 month holidays. and now, i am stuck in the middle of the road. i wondered whether to go back to UM or not but i guess that....

hell, i just enjoyed myself staying at home. doing all kinds of things such as :

1. learn Japanese language.
2. learn how to cook well and bake well.
3. learn how to sew clothes.
4. start googling for my thesis project.
5. stay healthy, keep my body fit by exercising
(yes, i know that you might luagh at it, stop it! :p)
6. learn back all the things that i have learnt again.

yes people, it is all coming back to LEARNING! i need to start learning now, do not procastinate and please dear baby-san, keep on reading. add your knowledge whenever you have the opportunity. i am worried with my results that is really bad (and i am so frustrated with it!), i need to FOCUS more. i wanted to study and learn lots of things. although i know that my brain capacity is not 32gb but again, i need to put some "external hardisc" and yes, try to push myself to the limits.

wtf?

2009-06-09T00:25:00.000-07:00

yes, the other day i was playing facebook and simply answering some random questions. and oh my god! i was answering this personality-test or something and the results of the quiz says that i have Histrionic Personality Disorder! what the hell is that? then, i started to search for it in yahoo and guess what? read below here..

What is histrionic personality disorder?

Histrionic personality disorder is one of a group of conditions called dramatic personality disorders. People with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions and distorted self-images. For people with histrionic personality disorder, their self-esteem depends on the approval of others and does not arise from a true feeling of self-worth. They have an overwhelming desire to be noticed, and often behave dramatically or inappropriately to get attention. The word histrionic means “dramatic or theatrical.”

This disorder is more common in women than in men and usually is evident by early adulthood.

What are the symptoms of histrionic personality disorder?

In many cases, people with histrionic personality disorder have good social skills; however, they tend to use these skills to manipulate others so that they can be the center of attention.

A person with this disorder might also:

Be uncomfortable unless he or she is the center of attention
Dress provocatively and/or exhibit inappropriately seductive or flirtatious behavior
Shift emotions rapidly
Act very dramatically as though performing before an audience with exaggerated emotions and expressions, yet appears to lack sincerity
Be overly concerned with physical appearance
Constantly seek reassurance or approval
Be gullible and easily influenced by others
Be excessively sensitive to criticism or disapproval
Have a low tolerance for frustration and be easily bored by routine, often beginning projects without finishing them or skipping from one event to another
Not think before acting
Make rash decisions
Be self-centered and rarely show concern for others
Have difficulty maintaining relationships, often seeming fake or shallow in their dealings with others
Threaten or attempt suicide to get attention

What causes histrionic personality disorder?

The exact cause of histrionic personality disorder is not known, but many mental health professionals believe that both learned and inherited factors play a role in its development. For example, the tendency for histrionic personality disorder to run in families suggests that a genetic susceptibility for the disorder might be inherited. However, the child of a parent with this disorder might simply be repeating learned behavior. Other environmental factors that might be involved include a lack of criticism or punishment as a child, positive reinforcement that is given only when a child completes certain approved behaviors, and unpredictable attention given to a child by his or her parent(s), all leading to confusion about what types of behavior earn parental approval.

yes, but 1 thing good about these people is that they are good in social skills. but i was shocked to find out that i am having this personality disorder (ala baby-san, it's not like the end of the world and the quiz might not be accurate too :p). pape pun, i think some of the question in FB are totally suck while others are ok. owh well, this is so random post that i actually just simply wanted to write it :)

daftar sbjek :)

2009-06-07T22:31:00.000-07:00

hello blog, i have registered my subjects for the upcoming semester 5, session 2009/2010. wow! i am now going to be a final year student! but hell no, i need to extend for another semester since i changed my course from physics to ecology and biodiversity majoring in zoology. yeah, i know that some of you might be wondering, what the hell is that? i mean, in Malaysia, we haven't developed yet in this field but coming soon, i know that the government are looking at this prospect a little bit detail nowadays (according to my lecturer). well, basically my results was rather disappointment because ..... i am so not going to spill it out in my blog! it's confidential!! :p

being a 3rd year student, i supposed that i need to be more matured in the way of thinking and my action. moreover, i need to search and start google-ing about topics that i may choose for my final year project. OMG! it's really breath-taking. i am scared actually but i need to FOCUS on STUDIES instead of play around :) YES, the key word here is

STUDY + WORK HARD = SUCCESS

ok, enough of mumbling. i am taking 7 papers for this semester. and hopefully, i can score a lot better compared to last semester. here are my subjects :

Insect Biology
Advanced Ecology
Conservation Biology
Ecology and Forest Insect Management
Wild Life Biology
Ecology and Biodiversity Project
Organization Skills

yes people, with 7 subjects including 5 papers for final exam. it looks like i need to sacrifice lots of my time to study and do research and all. wish me luck people! :)

announcement..

2009-06-06T20:48:00.000-07:00

kiwi the pet aka the hamster had died
last night. the rest of the
family will always remember kiwi.
thanks for being part of our family for almost
3 years :(

Krispy Kreme (part 2)

2009-06-06T05:39:00.000-07:00

hello! :) disebabkan tibe2 semalam ayus and i telah merancang 1 rancangan jahat iaitu, both of us teringin lagi nak makan Krispy Kreme yang sangat2 sedap + delicious itu. hari ni juga tepat jam 8.30 pagi (terbangun awal hari ni sebab excited nak pergi jalan2 dekat pavilion!), terus bangun dan kemas2 bilik sebab takut mama marah if kuar dengan bilik yang macam tongkang pecah.. (tapi bilik ku sentiasa kemas lagi teratur, hahaha!). pape pun hari ni memang sangat2 best sebab..

ye, saya suka cam-whoring apabila muka saya nampak elok :p

actually jalan tengah jam n smpat lagi ayus bergambar :)
kami adalah adik-beradik ye!
sila jangan salah faham, huhh!
(kali ke-2 sangat annoying kan?) hik3..

our guilty pleasure :) krispy kreme yang cedap ini and the price is rm23.90
for 12 pieces of donuts

apabila kelaparan, begini lah muka budget comel tengah makan :)
burger king tengah wat promotion, marilah singgah
beramai-ramai :)

ayus pun lapar gak :p

iye, memandangkan hari ni termasuk dalam kedai MAC,
ternampak colour ini iaitu Brule.
sesuai dibuat sebagai base mata or eyeshadow biasa :)

walaupun hari ni banyak makan jam serta mengalami saat2 genting di mana tibe2 kereta ayus makan minyak terlebih banyak menyebabkan kami berdua cuak sangat2 takut tak sempat sampai kat stesen minyak yang berdekatan, tapi overall best. pastu pergi kat Robinsons at Garden and tibe2 rasa terharu :( bag Guess (including handbags and wallets) murah2 sangat2.. tapi memandangkan takde duit, terpaksa batalkan hasrat dan hanya mampu berangan sahaja. pastu lak terharu kali ke-2 kerana kasut Nine West de promotion. aduh! ni tak boleh jadi!! nasib baik minggu depan ayu nak pergi lagi Mid Valley, leh la kira2 budget sepanjang minggu ini mengenai barang2 yang diperlukan (perlu ke??) untuk beli or tidak. tahu, ini sangat2 membazir tapi apakan daya, memang best2 sume barang2 itu. plus, i need to find a bag too. plus rasa macam nak beli contact lense colour warna grey. sume itu memerluka duit, waa!!! :(

(pesan pada diri sendiri, sila blajar rajin2 wahai baby-san.. nanti dah habis degree, cari kerja bagus2 dan if time tu nak pakai pape pun leh.. yang penting blaja, jangan hampakan mama abah, gambatte!)

jalan2 makan angin :)

2009-06-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

yesterday we hangout at Jusco Balakong. we watched Terminator Salvation and i must say that the movie is superb! you can watch the trailer here. overall, the terminators sequel is a must-watch movie and it's not just because you may see Christian Bale but also, its superb! but yeah, unfortunately we have to wait for years to watch the end of terminator because as usual, it has not come to an end yet :) 5 stars to this movie.

this is my sister. she's the 2nd oldest in the family.

yours truly :p

at night, again i went out with ayus to kajang. and guess what? here's my catch of the day. a whole set of makeup brush from Elianto. since it does not include the foundation brush, i bought it separately :) though its Elianto but i think the brush just nice. i could not afford to buy MAC as we all know that the brush set may costs me around rm600+ and its just the brush only! hik3.. lain la if dah keje, kan? :) by the way, i need to stop spending my money since i am now penganggur terhormat, hihi!

my 1st desert :)

2009-06-02T06:12:00.000-07:00

ehem2! this is my 1st trifle that i made today. although tak berapa nak jadi sangat but the taste is ok. what do you expect from a girl yang baru nak belajar memasak ini? :p by the way, i took the recipe from a blogger and i just simply wanna try out. i taste sweet and have some apple and starfruit that i simply put it between the layers of castard and creme. sounds mouth-watering tak? haha! sila jenguk di sini untuk melihat dengan lebih lanjut resepi yang sebenar2 nya :)

ada 2 benda di sini yang saya nak announced :

1. happy birthday to shanti (my gorgeous friend!). she is now officially 21st years old. dear, we are so gonna celebrate your birthday soon, ok? hopefully your dad gonna get well soon after the operation. i miss to hangout with you darlz :( and yeah, we are now free to hit the clubs! (macam pernah jek pergi clubbing padahal tak pernah pun.. saja jek nak bagi ayat gempak! ngeh~).

2. happy birthday to zul. although saya marah2 pada anda, sebenarnya saya cuma terkilan. itu sahaja. dan alhamdulillah, awak nampak bahagia bersama dengan orang lain (sebab saya tahu saya tak leh nak wat awak happy, hik3!). and yeah, semoga tahun ini akan bawa 1001 kenangan yang lebih indah dalam hidup awak, amin.

itu sahaja yang nak di-announced kan. esok tak tahu lagi pe plan nak wat. but i feel like nak kuar jek umah. hmm, so bosan :( padahal baru jek kuar hari tu tapi tu la, tak tahu nak wat pe kat umah. sape2, sila carikan saya scandal, leh kah? :p

(p/s : scandal saya itu haruslah tinggi, hensem dan berduit. serta single. hik3! kuat berangan tak saya? heheheh! mari isi borang ramai2.. hahahah!)