a story to share

there's a story that i wanted to share with all of you. i mean, do you guys actually believe in love? i mean people keep on saying that true love exists or it'll never dies (bla.. bla.. bla..). but i've witnessed some of the story that has come to its ends. whether the girl or the boy who started the conflict (it does matter yyou know..), but at the end of the day, one will get hurt. and the one that get hurts, tend to no to take the love itself more seriously.

there's a couple which i used to describe as such a lovely couple. i mean wake up! they are so in love with each other, like i used to feel towards boy (my 1st love). they really remind me of how both of us used to be. but the happy ending story wasn't like in the fairy tales. the girl started to flirt with other guy, from one to another and as an observer, i was really getting so sick and felt weird because i do know (or i think that i know?) that she still loves her bf. but again, there's a song by pussycat dolls, happy never ending. after several months of going out with a new guy, (again as an observer?) they had develops feelings towards each other. though she always tried to convince others that they are just friends, not more than that. of course, i'm sure that they live in denial while trying to cheat to others (dengan harapan no one will know the truth but hey, people got eyes you know). i felt sad, i mean how can people take things for granted? it's not easy to find someone that is going to be with you through good and bad times, is it? finally, after the bf knows about the truth (which is not the whole thing of course), they broke up. i wasn't surprise though but i felt so sad towards the guy. he really reminds me of boy.

what can i conclude about my story up here? in a love relationship, honesty is the best policy. if you are not sincere towards your partner, why do you have to be with him when you are love is not fully on him/her? to fall in love for me is not easy. because you need to actually feel the love from within and not simply just pick-and-choose. i have been in several relationships but honestly, i am still in love with the first one. because i felt that my heart still belongs to him. yeah, i know it sounds weird (maybe some of you might say, "get a life"!) but it was true love. in my previous relationship, i did tried to love them but unfortunately it's hard.

suka, sayang and cinta are 3 different words. suka is for temporary, sayang is not really a strong word. why? because if u said, "saya sayangkan awak", it's really a general term. but when you said, "saya cintakan awak", it means a lot. it means that you are willing to sacrifice for your partner, be with him/her through good and bad times, accept him/her as they are and you wanted to share your life with him/her till the last day of your life. in all my relationships, only boy manage to said, "boy cintakan baby sangat2" while others just roughly said, "saya sayangkan awak". so, appreciate what you have in front of your eyes, don't take things for granted and appreciate every minute with her. honestly, eventhough my relationship with boy ended almost 2 years ago, but alhamdulillah, we did appreciate every second of it (dulu2 la). setiap masa yang berlalu, setiap hari yang berlalu, both of us bersyukur coz dapat melalui hari2 yang semalam and berharap hari yang mendatang akan lebih indah. but apakan daya, kita hanya merancang, kan?


dear God, thank you for making me fall in love with boy. he was a great guy, please dear God, let him meet someone that can take care of him and always be there with him,are willing to help no matter what happen. and please if dia bukan jodoh ku, cabutkan lah perasaan sayang dan cinta dari hati ini. amin



(p/s: this topic might be a bit controversy but this is just my thought so don't make it such a big deal. as long as i didn't mention anyone's name, it shouldn't be any problem, right? and i do hope, the new guy in the girl's life will take good care of her.)