melodies (:

the music that he played with the piano is extremely nice. my target, to learn this song starting from today! :) wish me luck!

freshies of za'ba!

actually benda ni dah lama dah took place tapi tak sempat nak update since i was too busy nak settlekan hal2 blajar and kelas.. lagipun time tu pictures lak takde, ni pun baru jek ambik dari dayah :) pape pun budak2 cell ni sangat2 la baek and best! so tak sia2 la bising2 and main2 dengan diorg sume.. (: yg penting kitorg enjoyed makan kfc sama2, main sama2! kan?

thank you abah! (:

this is my mom and my younger sis at Oldtown Kopitiam in Kajang. we had our break after doing some shopping at Tesco, earlier in the morning. then, mama wanted to make a new spectacle since her ones are already old. the three of us were really had fun! this is the first time mama went to Oldtown because mama is not really an outdoor person :) however, she liked her hazelnut mocha coffee and the double kaya-butter bread. while me and su loves our hor fun mee (: its delicious, i can bet you on that! :p



well, its been ages since i wanted to own a camera. luckily me, abah was willingly to support me a little bit of money (at the beginning, i thought i wanted to give a share too). thank you abah! tonight, abah and i went to kajang and guess what?

1. sony rechargable battery.

2. a big tripod! yes, i am thrilled.

3. the bag....

4. the box.

5. the camera, a semi-pro Fujifilm Finepix S1000fd






THANKS ABAH! :) LOVE YOU
AND I PROMISE THAT I WILL TRY MY VERY BEST
TO GET A GOOD RESULT!

lunch @ Pizza Hut seksyen 14

supposedly both of us went out with khalaf but it seems that he's too buy with his life and girlfriend. so, we decided to just spent it on ourselves. we had sensai delight menu at pizza hut section 14. we had our usual girly talked and laughed out, gossiping and etc. i just love having a girly day out (:

ecology night! =_=

i don't have lots of pictures about this event tonight because i still haven't bought a new camera. but here are some of the pics that i managed to take it with my camera phone. it was great, the students and all the lecturers are so sporting. credits to Prof. Dr. Mohd Sofian Azirun, Prof. Dr. Rosli Hashim, Prof. Dr. Rosman and Prof. Dr. Yusoff for giving us support in this event. not to forget, to all my coursemates, seniors and juniors who were willingly have time to spent it with us. hope that our juniors will keep on continuing our tradition. oh well, i want to get some sleep now. goodnight everyone =_=

happy belated birthday dayah! =_=

thanks dayah for the deliciously and eatable secret recipe cake and kfc.. happy belated 22nd birthday.. may the angels look upon you. may God bless you.. may you are truly bless with people around you.. thank you for the friendship that we have shared together. may it will lasts forever =_=

emosi terganggu

i couldn't sleep last night.

my brain were playing all those memories between me and him.

why?

i don't know.

i have plan this weekend.

to settle down my project, to sit back and enjoy my life.

but i keep thinking about him.

why?

why?

yes people, i know that lately my blog has been all about my words.

words that come from my heart, my soul, my mind.

i just let it slip into my body, controlling the emotional part of me.

oh, i know i am going to stop this instantly.

but please,

just give me some time to re-connecting my mind with my body.

give me some time.



:(

penat :(

actually few days ni sangat2 la penat. nak online pun tak sempat, still lagi minggu add and drop pastu dengan thesis lagi, induksi senior and junior lagi. hari ni jek dah la makan dah banyak! terasa cam nak puasa lak tapi tak sure lagi. i letih sangat2 rasanye walaupun tahu salah sendiri sebab tak tahu nak managed masa. but hmm, hopefully lepas ni dapat budget masa dengan cemerlang.



kepala dah kurang berserabut. biar lah pasal dia, if kita suka kat dia dalam diam pun takpe, kan? ala, lagipun sekarang ni terlalu banyak benda yang nak difikirkan. boy, hmm... rindu sangat2 kat dia tapi diam2 jela kat dalam hati. nak bitau kat sape lagipun, kan? if bitau kat kawan2 pun diorang dah tahu and diorang suruh banyak sabar and doa banyak2. yang pasal dia lak? memang kita dah tak nak fikir pasal dia lagi. kita malas nak cakap pape pasal dia lagi. kita tahu dia pun de banyak benda nak fikir. kita kadang2 kesian kat dia tapi dah kita tak leh nak tolong. sebab kita pernah rasa pe dia rasa dulu. memang sakit, sampai kita tak cure after 2 tahun. ala, bukan dia tahu pun kita suka kat dia. kita lagi suka dia tak tahu, rimas if dia tahu. terasa cam dia pun nak jauhkan diri dia dari kita padahal kita ikhlas nak tolong dia. mungkin dia rasa kita suka kat dia so dia tak nak bagi harapan. giler geli ayat, hahahaha! tapi kita dah tak nak suka dia. kita tak nak ambik berat pasal dia lagi sebab dia pun tak ambik berat pasal kita.




kita cian tengok dia, makin kurus tapi dah dia sendiri pun tak cuba untuk okay. kita tahu dia sedih tapi dia kena sedar, kena tabah. hopefully dia tabah, kita selalu doa untuk kawan2 kita. kita terasa dia tak cakap sorry pun kat kita. kita tak mengharap sekadar hope dia jaga hati kawan dia. tapi dah dia pun tak jaga, kita nak cakap pe lagi, kan? kadang2 kita sedih, nape Tuhan selalu uji kita? kita rindu sangat2 kat boy, kita tahu kita nakal sangat2 dulu tapi kita ikhlas sayangkan boy. kita jujur sayangkan boy. kita nak kawin ngan boy. kita sayang dia, cinta dia, kita ikhlas sangat2 tapi nape jadi camni? kita susah nak sayangkan orang lain, kita cuba tapi mesti tak berjaya, nape? mungkin sebab kita tak cukup ikhlas kot. kita tak cukup baik, kan?




kita tak la perfect, kita tak la solat cukup 5 waktu tapi kita cuba sedaya-upaya kita. kita cuba jadi orang yang terbaik, anak yang terbaik, kawan yang terbaik tapi entah la. kita penat, kita letih sayangkan seseorang yang tak sayang kita. kita rindu sangat2 kat boy tapi sape yang faham?? and if kita suka kat dia pun, dia tak jaga hati kita. kita terasa sangat2 dengan dia tapi kita tak nak cakap pape. kita nak ignore jek dia. biar lah dia, kita doakan dia dari jauh ok?

i am exhausted =/

this weekend is not fun at all. i am tired, moody and upset for no reason. abul wanted to meet me on this coming weekend which i doubt that because its pretty annoying just to thinking of that jerk. oh, i do not want to meet him but i he owes me an apology and damn good reason why he's been lying to me all this while - though i know he might lie to me AGAIN. plus with the confused part in my life, things are not getting better. but now, i refused to think of these stuff that are stuffing inside my head.




to whom who may concern, i am so gonna get rid of you. i don't know whether you noticed it or not but i do like you in a sense that i think you are 1 of a very rare person i ever met. yes, you are crazy and annoying but you makes me laugh. you are nice, you are so unpredictable but i don't know why i like you in the first place. i guess that i would definitely stop from liking you from now on. i'll send a prayer to you, hopefully you are going to be okay. i know its hard but i pray for your happiness in this world.




some things are better being left unsaid, untouch by others. sometimes i do wonder, what is my destiny? who am i? aah! i know that some people do not know me very well, thus they thought that i am the typical girl, the naughty type of girl that loves to go clubbing and such a sociable girl but ain't you got it wrong boy. dammit, if only people do not judge the book by its cover.

what on earth am i thinking?

the topic itself contain lots of things. there's a hidden meaning that not everyone can read between the lines. oh yes, lately i have been manipulating myself to forget boy and try to keep my self focusing on my new semester. i tend not to think about him, though i really do missed him badly. these several days have yet been such a good time. though i have to convinced myself that its just another step or just another short chapter in my life. i could not explain it into words or even if i tried to, it does not sounds right to me. for this coming semester, yes. i had try to change my view in love, trying to convince myself that i better try to get along with other guy. but the best part is, is true love will ever exist? i am playing with the words, try to make you not to understand me better. love is really pissing me off. i mean, i just can't pretend that it does not bother me at all. oh, please ignore this entry as i think that i am unconsciously writing down all the facts that are not really myself. i am mumbling for no reason as i can't write it down, because i do want some people to read what my heart really feels right now. bye..

bz mode..

for the time being,
i am so lazy to update my blog since
my class has already started.

when 3 guys and 2 girls are together!

yes people, can you imagine when there are 5 people inside a Myvi, laughing and chit-chatting with each other? well today, i went out with ayus (my brother lorr), su, kal and robert. we went to mid valley since ayus wanted to go for shopping and after that, we went to jusco balakong to watched Transformers. seriously, it was an absolutely a fantastic movie! but unfortunately for me and su, we have to sit at the 1st row since that all the tickets were already fully booked! it was really a tiring day and since tomorrow i have to go back to um, just so you know that i have NOT packed my things yet! and yes people, instead of packing my things, i choose to blogged about my activities for today. isn't it pathetic? hihihih! ok, i need to start packing my things up since tomorrow abah will send me back to um around 8 am in the morning. fuh! trust me, i really piss off with my college since i will be alone (probably this whole 3rd year) since that all my babes did not get stay at the college. wtf? guess that i need to band myself from any college activity now. don't want to get too involved with college anymore, i'm getting sick of it. bye people, enjoy the pics k :)

all the 5 hungry-looking-people waiting for their lunch to be served
:)

and the menu is.... madam kwan's!

4 out of 5 of us ordered nasi lemak.
it's pretty nice though but i preferred my mama's
nasi lemak since she is the best cooker
i ever known!

nasi bojari that belongs to kal

ayus as usual, craving for sugar and luckily
for him
krispy kreme is now available in mid valley!

there's some sort of showing off lotus cars
which is absolutely
damn nice car!! i want one :'(

ayus bought a guess watch
sangat2 jeles k :p

if you are the t-shirt type boy/girl,
you better get your hands to these brand
its really nice but the price?
a bit expensive compared to the usual tees.
its not mine k, its ayus'.

last minute preparation..

hi blog! since my new semester is just around the corner, i have already bought several things for me to get back to UM. it requires lots of energy to do the shopping and lots of money while juggling with working at the same time. but i had already quit working at Kumon since yesterday. but i haven't got the chance to pack my super-a-lot-stuff yet! oh, i still have another 1 day to finish up packing things. since this upcoming semester marks my 3rd year of studying (it supposed to be my final year but since i changed my course, i will have to extend for another 1 semester), i will be busy working my ass off with thesis and studies. did i mentioned that all my friends did not get to stay in our college? it means that now i am ALONE!! seriously, eventhough i knew almost the majority of 2nd year students (yeah, i was just exaggerating it, ka-ching!), but i want my girls to be there with me too :'( wtf! i mean there are activite in every activities and hell, they have been kicked out from there. but fortunately, i am thankful too because i still got the chance to stay in college.



back to the topic. i bought several things that i think is necessary while i am in hostel. but these are just some of it, while other stuff such as all the baldi and bakul etc, i already have it. check it out!

flip-flops from tropicana girl, a new purse from the same brand,
shampoo and conditioner from sunsilk, hair serum from loreal,
2 selendang's (i am wearing tudung/selendang while in UM)
all the toiletries and bedaks etc.

some of the notebooks that i bought
for me to write all
the lecture notes if the lecturers di not
give us the photocopy ones.

a good pair of wedges (or flats but as you know me, i don't like wearing
flats because i feel so "pendek")
=)

an over-sized bag that can match any clothes,
be it a baju kurung or even with jeans!
(tips 1# buy an over sized bag that is nice so that you can use it
not only to go to class but also when you go out for shopping!)

the wallet as i mentioned earlier.
it's my 2nd serious wallet
:)

and now... i am officially b-r-o-k-e! isk2 :'(

friends gathering :')

it's been ages since the last time i met these people. they are my schoolmates, ever since i was in form 1. i exchanged my school in the year 2001 (during the 2nd semester) because abah bought a new house at Kajang. i was placed inside 3 Ruby class. so these girls were some of earliest friend in convent. i loved them ever since then (although we did have some argument here and there but i cherished them with all my heart :') so today, it was supposed to be our class gathering but it seems that only 5 people were there : Razmin, Shanti, Zaitul, Yasmin and me. we laughed like mad person, we talked for it seems like non-stop chatting. we were having a blast! oh, let the pictures do the talking :)

i was in last place, aish! malu2 :p

oh, we should go out again next time, ok girls? :)