my thoughts..

as i was taking almost a half day going to Institute of Medical Research (IMR) in Kuala Lumpur, meeting Encik Dollah to do some identification of mosquitoes. actually, i was following Kak Nurin and Abg Izzul there. both of them was just simply dragging me together with them to make me learned more on mosquitoes taxonomy. well, i must say that i gained knowledge, priceless knowledge on mosquitoes. i have now mentally prepared on getting my thesis done :) during lunch time, the four of us, eventually Kak Harlina included too, went to 12th college to have our lunch. i was the only undergrad student while all of them are master students. as we talked, i realized that its better to waste, ops! to spend our youth time gaining knowledge till we totally capable of memorize every single thing! i mean, in my context of words, i would definitely put in on horrible ways. eventually, i learned that a doctorate student (i mean phd student, if i get the spelling incorrect), would get monthly payment of rm6000-rm7000!! that is a really huge money. lets see what shall we buy with all those money :

1. pay the monthly payment of my family house.

2. take my parents to go to Macca and vacation.

3. i can buy a suzuki swift car.

4. can buy tons of makeups from MAC, heels and more heels from Aldo, bags, branded clothes, etc..

5. save my money for my future.

but, incase if you haven't notice, i HAVE to study REAL HARD in order to get my hands on that kind of payment. although i realize that i have another talent, apart from having pretty good in communicating skills, i also know that i can be a very good teacher. i have sufficiently proved it for the last few years back. but again, being a teacher is really not my thing. i don't plan to spend my entire life just to teach on one particular subject. instead, i would love to explore more and more. but again, being a lecturer is really hard for me. as i am not a really good student, to start of.


on the other hand, compared to Mr. Boyfie, he got those brains and inteligence within him. oh God, i really wish that i have those 2 qualities that make him the spotlight. yes, i can imagined while he is reading this, he might think that his gf is just crapping some nonsence, ngee~ i'll pray for his success. okay, back to my main point. the path to be a lecturer can be harsh. you know, you have got to be prepared mentally and physically. i mean, you have got to get a really good grades. i don't pass that criteria, unfortunately. but i did pass on teaching people until they managed to get results with flying colors! :')



oh well, lets just pray that i will managed to get good grades for this new, upcoming semester. Mr. Boyfie had always have fainth in me but still, the success is not within my reach, sigh*. i will try my best, and that, is my promise to my ownself.

end of 2009

i am practically writing down this post inside my lab. although this is the last week of semester break, i still going back to UM to finish up my data regarding on my project. yeah, its lame but still, i need to settle it up soon. its been a really tiring week, i must say. unfortunately of me (sape suruh buat keje lambat2?!). so here are the things that has been revolving around my super busy and humble (hihihihi!~) life :

1. already pass up my draf on literature review.

2. i have done my corrections on my data in Gombak.

3. have already started my 2nd site in Kuala Selangor. but i have not finalize the results yet.

4. have already neglected my super fun life and face (its horrible, trust me!)

5. running out of money already.

6. daydreaming on getting my hand on iPod touch (takde kaitan!)

7. love Mr. Boyfie even more, awww :')

apparently, Mr. Boyfie got an offered to further his study in Master at UM. i'm so glad! at least, i can still seeing him from far away =p he got a good results for last semester and i am so proud of him. he got a scholarship from UPM to do his master and phd and at the end of the day, he will become a lecturer (amin...) and finally, hope we can get marry one day :')


ok, thats all. i need to finish up my mosquitoes dissecting thingy. its reallytime consuming to actually dissecting one by one of the mosquitoes. haish.. =_="

relieved~

terasa nak marah orang, ngee~

i just finished up writing 20 pages of literature review and have been compiling more than 50 references. its been a really tiring week. and yet, i still have to edit my literature review, haven't finalize it. regarding on my references, i still need to check out my format on writing those references. for the data, i have just finished up doing graphs but still, i need to check back my whole results.


finished talking about my endless work on thesis, i have already arrived back at Kajang this evening. i have been staying at syura's house for couple of days. Mr. Boyfie had helped me a lot regarding on my thesis. a bunch of thanks to you love for helping me out with these stuff. rasa dekat sangat dengan sayang, best :) sebab sayang sanggup temankan i ke sana ke mari and seeing you smile makes me feel like i own the world!


pape pun, this thursday, i will be going to Taman Alam, Kuala Selangor for another 4 days of fieldwork. this is my second site and i hope i will manage grab couple of people to follow me to this place. sape2 nak ikut inform me via sms please. bitau ASAP ok?

thanks love =')

1. for keeping up with me through good and bad times

2. for letting me know how much i mean to you

3. for being with me although you yourself are tired and restless

4. helping me put with my thesis projects

5. listen to my mumblings all over again

6. makes me smile after a rough day

7. for accepting me as i am despite all my weakness

and last but not least...








to show me that love is beautiful and you have given me unconditional love.

i will always and forever remember you

because you have made my life so special

and full of happiness



thanks sayang :')

opinion peeps??!!

well, i was thinking about what life would be after graduating next year from um. unfortunately, for me, i have good PR skills but my brain does not supporting me. i don't know, i wish i have a brain like Mr. Boyfie. he's really good with his brain. i wonder, whether i will be able to be exactly like him. i ma frustrated with myself, kind off thinking that hey, why am i being so stupid these days? where the hell is my will power? where the hell is my brain? i wanted to be like in those days, where i have good brains, good deals in the future. oh God, please give me back my brainy. i wanted to make my parents proud of me. i feel sorry for Mr. Boyfie for having a stupid girlfriend like me =( sorry love, i am not like you who can get dean list twice. i tried but its just too hard for me to try and get good results :'( now, i am thinking i am no better than anyone else.

kepenatan~

saya penat..


sekian, terima kasih..

lets get updated!

ATTENTION PLEASE!

THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG ENTRY

;)

part 1:

last week has been a hell out of week. i was finishing up my data for thesis with the help of Abg Izzul, Mr. Boyfie and myself dissecting one by one all the mosquitoes for analysis data and compilation purposes. i was a little late for preparing these data (i wasn't serious earlier but now i am serious about it) =_=' we have like hundreds of mosquitoes to be identified and dissected. but thanks to Mr. Boyfie, he had helped me a lot within that 2 days in the lab =) i heart you sayang.


then, again, he helped me doing my compilation of data to pass it up to my co-supervisor. i must say that without him helping me all these things, i might not going to do well in presenting my data. oh, he really makes me falling for him so hard =p take a sneak peak on my data presentation. i shall say Mr. Boyfie deserves to get an A for his thesis. he is SO good!


part 2 :

well, after those hectic days, somehow i managed to squeeze some of my precious time to celebrate Mr. Boyfie's birthday =) we had lots of fun, shared the special days together, have a heart-to-heart conversation. i bought him a little present (sorry, i am running out of money love ): and he likes it!!


part 3 :

on thursday, shanti asked me to help her being a promoter for Bizzy Body at Metro Kajang with a payment of rm70 per day. although i was too occupied with lots of things, i managed to help her that day. unfortunately, i came late and i have less that 6 hours to gained information of 40 people and promoting the company. within the 1st subsequent 1 hour, i managed to grab almost 20 names!! and by 4 hours, i managed to get 40 names altogether. Mr. Boyfie told me i have a good PR skills, even shanti was shocked too on how little time i managed to get lots of names =) cheers!


p/s : but i want to have good brains, just like Mr. Boyfie who managed to get good results :(


part 4 :


on last saturday, i was involved with my brother's dinner, being the makeup artist for the beauty peagents at his work place. i was scared and nervous, not to mention, i was really feel insecured coz i was not sure about myself, wether i can do these or not, while Mr. Boyfie keeps telling me that i have to have a faith in myself. thanks love for the advise =) and hell yeah, i managed to finished up everything, all together 15 people in 7 hours of non-stop makeuping people. after that, i have a blast eating and laughing with kak azie and kak izma =_=


p/s : kak azie did offer me to join any other events (if i have time to join it!) like for Air Asia team and even she told me i should go to this makeup workshop (and its FREE!!! yippie!) later on. owh, did i ever tell you that she told me my makeup skills worth rm150 per person? =)

happy! =)

sayang.. finally you dah letak pic kita kat FB kan? i am so flattered and happy with it =) thanks love..

kadang-kadang..

kadang2 pabila kita telah penat berusaha

Tuhan uji dengan kesedihan

kita fikir, kita telah buat sehabis baik

lantas, kita yakin pada diri kita

tapi,

Tuhan itu Maha Adil kan?

kita tak patut putus asa

mungkin belum sampai waktunya

dan mungkin,

Tuhan nak aku lebih berusaha.


kadang2,

terasa nak menangis pabila pe kita hajati

tak dapat

lalu,

kita terus-terusan menangisi ketidakpuasan hati terhadap takdir-Nya

tapi,

Tuhan itu Maha Adil, kan?


kadang2,

kita lupa siapa diri kita

kita lalai pada Dia

sesekali gagal menjadi hamba-Nya yang patuh pada-Nya.


jadi,

kita haruslah saling ingat-mengingati

andai hari ini aku jatuh

hulurkan lah tangan Mu wahai Tuhanku

pimpin la tangan ku wahai teman

andai diriku alpa

andai diriku leka

andai diriku berputus asa terhadap apa yang aku usahakan selama ini

kerana...





aku cuma seorang insan yang lemah..

NOW~

(sekadar gambar hiasan semata-mata!)

1. plan for the upcoming birthday of Mr. Boyfie

2. settle up my mosquitoes in the lab and plan for my next fieldwork project on mosquitoes and also, put all my results for the 1st trip inside a suitable table form

3. search for journals (50 types) and print it out

4. write a proposal and send it to Mr. Boyfie for editing process

5. write draft for Chapter 1 and Chapter 2 and send it to Ziden after Mr. Boyfie check it out (again!)

6. prepare my notes to present to Prof Sofian

7. prepare for next semester thingy

-done-

lega~

exam dah habis..

nak tulis tu jek..

papai

=p

praise to God..

1 paper down,

another 4 papers that i need to focus on..

praise to dear God

i managed to answer the questions..

it felt so worthy

all those memorizing, papers and other sacrifices

that were made earlier on..

but,

a whole lot of things awaits me

4 PAPERS, HERE I COME!

=')

happy 2nd month anniversary love..

may God bless us..

=)

i love you, angel..

=)

you make my day..

thanks love

damn i am falling on you so hard

that i think i might going insane

just because of loving you

=)




p/s: if you come in contact with this guy, could you
please send him back to me?
thank you ^_^

self-obsession

yes people..

i am presenting my own self..

just simply because
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I AM SO GODDAMN BORING AND TENSION!


haish... Mr. Boyfie, please scold me =(

keinginan yg mendalam

tibe2 keinginan yg melampau

untuk memiliki hp ini semakin meningkat.

sampaikan termimpi2 untuk

2 hari berturut2.

bermula dengan mengangkat hp ini

ketika tido dan tersedar apabila

sayang yg bagi msg...


haish ^_^"

p/s: sayang, nak hp ni leh tak? =p

ikon IPT

it happened a month ago but i could not find myself any time to write about it. oh well, it is not a big deal after all. i got an offered to join for a reality programmed TV show called Icon IPT where representatives from all all over universities in Malaysia to compete with each other and become the Icon of IPT. you guys did know what IPT stands for, right? its Institut Pengajian Tinggi in Malaysia lorr, haish.. =p

we had casting here and there and my baju was being sponsored by Singojoyo biz. and boy i did not know that we have a photo session and pfftt... my hair was unspeakable, i have to say that it was a REALLY BAD HAIR DAY ^_^"


but i do get a cute partner though, he's wearing same color with my wedding clothes, heee~ Mr. Boyfie, DON'T GET JEALOUS ye sayang =)


credit to my girlfriend, Yam because she was helping me during the whole process from the beginning till the end of the photoshoot. she helped me the clothes, the hair and giving me support (lots of it!).. thanks babe! =)


overall, it was a nice experienced and yeah, i wish i got to the next level but luck wasn't wit me this time. but hey, it's ok then =) enjoy the pics..

exam mode

baby tengah study.. jangan kacau! =p

final exam is just around the corner.. i have 5 papers for this semester. basically, its been a week already since study leave has started. i have yet, a lot of things to read and memorize. not only i need to focus on my final, i need to finish up my data for my thesis research. but i do prefer to take the data during semester break since i can keep my focus 100% on it alone. here's a sneak pick on what is going on with my life :

1. my relationship with him its on the road, alhamdulillah =) 1 month and 19 days.. still counting..

2. i have been busy preparing myself for the exam but i have to admit, i DO sleep A LOT, which i DON"T favor it at all.

3. i think i have been putting on few kg lately ='( need to diet back.

4. i am at home, i think my focus are better when i am at home, at least, i have some privacy compared to studying in my room back at college because memorizing means i need A LOT of PRIVACY.

5. i am officially broke... need to say more? i feel like selling some of my heels to people, does anyone wants to buy my heels? the price? we can negotiate with it later on..

busy mode on

sorry coz dah lama tak update blog..

quite bz lately..

papai =)

i miss you =(

i miss you =(

i need to be out of your sight for several days

and somehow,

it seems like years..

i am going to miss you badly..

can i just cut you into pieces and bring you together with me?

=(

baby misses you so much..

open house at essmat's

thanks essmat and the gang for making this event
a success..
thanks yam for such a wonderful food..
its really mouth watering, and tasteful..
and thanks everyone =)

conservation's trip

fun + superb = tiring
=)

gado =(

i hate to have a fight with you cause it makes me sad. i hate it when you hurt me. i hate it when you choose your friends instead of me. i hate it when you do things without me knowing it. i hate it so much! why? i hate it when you make me feel like crying. i hate it so much that it hurts me llike hell. how could you do this to me? really, how could you? i don't like it at all whenever you are hurting me. cause it is damn painful. damn you love!~ damn you! =(

boy~

well, its been a while since the last time i heard any news from you. apparently baby is not single anymore. i met someone else, as you wish for. we are still new, less than a month actually. but i am so happy with him. the feeling is great. now, i don't listen to any sad songs anymore. boy, he is such a great guy. he's older than us, matured and a great lover, just like you. but i don't want to compare both of you, you guys are special in different ways. we both know it and this great guy, he is special in his own way. i could not stop smiling whenever i am with him. boy, its hard to let you go at first but as time goes by, i had learn that we are not meant to be together. maybe, that is why God separated us earlier. He knows how much i was in love with you and He don't want me to feel so much pain if it happen later on. boy, there's so many things i want to tell you. him? this new guy? he is tall, taller than you. i could hardly hug him, i must say that =p but yeah, it felt so good to be with him. he loves me as who i am despite that he also feels insecure towards you. i know, you won't come back to me but he is scared that i might walk away from him. boy, he's cleverer than me. though he can't really speaks well in English, but i adore him whenever i look at him. he is silly you know. he loves to see me smile. i think i am falling really hard on him. boy, you don't mind, right? i am sure that you are now happy with someone else. i really hope that your girl take good care of you. i will always remember you as the first guy in my life. boy, there's a saying that goes like this, " although 1st love is unforgettable, but it is possible that the 2nd love is greater than the 1st one". to you Mr. Boyfie, i am definitely in love with you. there's no doubt about that. and i promise that we will work things out no matter what happen, we will still remain together. God will be by our side. we just have to stay true to ourselves, okay? =) 'cause being with you means a lot to me. you have fill me with your love. really, i could not put into words how much i adore you love. and its really insane and indescribable by words. love, can we just promise to each other that what ever happens, we will try our best to stay together?

can you do me a favor?

(Sorry seems to be.....the hardest word)

Na na nanana

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?

What I got to do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard? oooooooohhh
What do I say when it's all over? (babe)
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

(That's right...)
It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Always seems to me
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

What I do to make you want me? hmmmmmmm
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

(Elton John)
It's sad, so sad
It's a sad sad situation
And it's gotten more and more absurd....ooooh
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Always seems to me
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

Oooh Yeah.....sorry
Na na nanana
Soooorrrrry

What do I do to make you love me?...oooh
What I got to do to be heard? hmmmm
What do I do when lightning strikes me? (yeah)
Yeah.....What do I got to do?
What do I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AbAX9A8Cq0k

i am in the need of playing piano right now. because its melody can make my heart melts, i can released my tension through its music. because through music, it can give me a piece of mind because my mind are now surrounded with all those assignments thingy =p but unfortunately, baby piano at my college can't be use at this moment due to construction that UM had made to my poor college.. hmm.. Mr. Boyfie, could you play me this song using guitar? i would love to see you playing this song for me =)

she's HERE!!

Date: Sunday, 25 October 2009
Time: 8-10pm
Venue: National Stadium, Bukit Jalil, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Tickets: RM93 (free seating), RM183 (numbered seating), RM283, RM383, RM583.

yes people!! she's coming to Malaysia on this coming October!! yeah, i am so going to go to the concert with ayus!! can't wait to go there and have super fun listening to all Beyonce's songs (did i mention it is held during study week??). well, lets just hope that Rihanna's incident will not happen again. =)



p/s : pic courtesy from Ayus' blog. damn! i have lots of assignments that i need to pay attention too =( sob.. sob...

simple yet adorable~

dear you,

it's been such a great time having you here beside me. all i can say is, i am truly happy with you by my side. its not that before this i am not happy, but you have added some colors in my life. how could i put this into words? i could not describe how much i am thankful to dear God for letting to be with you by my side. it all started with flirty words and all and we ended loving each other completely. its not even a month relationship but the way we treated each other as if we have known each other forever, as if we have already be together for the rest of our lives. yes, i know we both have bad experience during the past, some mistakes that we made but i am truly grateful that i have you now by my side. you have bring out the best in me, making me laugh and smile throughout the whole day. you can fit in with all my friends, regardless of who and where they come from. its such an honor to be your girlfriend because i think you deserve a better girl which are more better than me. but you choose me instead. i could not express the feelings, could not put it into words how wonderful you are to me. you are such a great guy, lover and friend. so please dear, keep my heart safely and never break it. cause i do not want to feel the pain again.

yours truly,

-ida-

myself part 1 =)

thanks Mr. Boyfie for this wonderful pic

=)